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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

Jack: “I don’t know if DROP OUT is an artwork. She said that it was.”

Marlin: “We’re in a weird position. It is fraud. If the value of the work plummets, we could be held liable for damages.”

Max de Lacy, pictured in the elaborate gilded egg of her office: “I wanted to write about DROP OUT in The Art of Losing, my memoir that releases next month, because I deeply loved the woman whom I knew as Carey. She was a friend. I wanted her to have what she wanted. To be seen.” Max glimmers. The thing about Max is that she means it when she says things like this. The camera allows the light to bounce off the peonies painted on her wall, and cuts back to Max smiling; it’s an effect that makes her look as gauche and out of place in this film as a diamond bracelet in a homeless shelter.

It cuts back to Tyler in his studio. The camera zooms out to show an empty room. “We’ve sold Pine City to Eliot&Sprain and consolidated our assets.” He looks around. “Today is our last day here.”

Charles Eliot: “We have no legal action to pursue against Pine City at this time.” The camera zooms out to show him standing in front of the Mission, directing workers.

Helen Sprain, sitting in the office of their Chelsea gallery: “This extraordinary property will become a true center for the arts in upstate New York. Performing arts space, a permanent collection, rotating exhibitions, funded residencies for marginalized artists—the Maria, as it’s now called, will be an anchor for the community.”

Marlin, exiting her empty studio: “The next thing is the retrospective. We’ve loaned the museum everything we have.”

Jack: “It’s not only the Carey work. It’s the work we made about her.”

Jes: “I don’t care about the retrospective. We got what we wanted. Bring on the future.”

Tyler: “I want to move on.”

The closing credits dedicated the film to the memory of Maria Frances Clarke over a photograph of her standing in Tompkins Square Park. In a floral dress, holding a skateboard, grinning ear-to-ear, her hair long, dark, uncombed, she looked like a nineteen-year-old girl with everything ahead of her—and absolutely nothing like Carey Logan.

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The audience was spooked. Some people were yelling into their phones and shoving past each other for the doors, while others stood, struck dumb, looking around for Pine City, who were not in the room. Most people didn’t seem to know whether they should be angry or outraged or excited or confused or what, and so they typed into their phones, searching for an article or a recap or anything that would tell them how to feel.

Max, beet red with discomfort, stayed still. She hadn’t known a thing about Charlie and Maria.

“I’m sorry,” I said to her, simply.