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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

“First…I guess I should say, I’m definitely taking organs from someone who is trying to bypass a list of some kind. My intervention stops the black market from being at its most efficient. But then—in some ways, I’m simply another variable. I’m probably raising the price of the organs by creating additional demand. I actually don’t know if that’s moral or not, and I guess that question is an interesting one to me.” He thought for a second and then continued, ticking off his fingers as he spoke. “It is addictively dangerous. People die every day, but buying black-market organs is complicated. It’s astonishingly remunerative, as art, more than it should be. But—and for me this is the most important thing—the finished work does something to people. It is objectively only an art object—the organs can’t be used again.”

“It’s calculated.”

“Of course,” he agreed. “I mean, nothing is thoughtless. People assume it’s insincere—it’s not. It’s a holy thing, to hold a person’s kidney.”

“I’m not in a position to criticize anyone for insincerity,” I replied. He clearly knew what I was doing. I owned up to it. “I’m remaking work for the biggest show of my career. I’m terrified they’re going to look like—like a bad face-lift. Jacqueline’s been telling everyone that they took two years to make. She sold half of them already. It’s fraud.” It was a relief to say it out loud.

“It’s not fraud,” he corrected me. “It’s your choice. In the end—nobody else gets to tell you who you are. That’s the only thing we get, as artists. You’re the only one who chooses it. The work you’re making now is as real as what you made before.”

“I hope that’s true.”

“You can’t lean on the idea that there’s some magic current animating you,” he said, with a little bit of contempt in his voice. “Choice is what distinguishes us”—he meant fine artists—“from people who make houses out of bottle caps.”

“I guess we’ll find out.”

“So how many?”

“Seven.”

His eyebrows shot up. “That’s a lot.”

“I know. It was all of them.”

“Does Jacqueline know?”

“No. They need to look exactly as they did.”

“What are they called?”

“Prudence—you saw that one already—then there’s Chastity, Humility, Obedience, Modesty, Temperance, and Purity.”

“Prudence is a rich ugly old maid courted by incapacity,” he said.

“How do you know that?” I asked, surprised. “You know Blake?”

“I looked it up after I saw the ad for your show.” He winked. “Milot took out that billboard on Tenth.”

“Oh, the billboard.” I sighed, worry trickling down my forehead like sweat. “God, that billboard. How much do billboards cost?”