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Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Title page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 1 Organs
  6. 2 Hard Goods
  7. 3 Swimming with Eels
  8. 4 Givenchy
  9. 5 Archive Style
  10. 6 Skull Radio
  11. 7 England Calling
  12. 8 Rocket Jockeys
  13. 9 Emotional Signals Are Chemically Encoded in Tears
  14. 10 Down to the River
  15. 11 Empty Space
  16. 12 I Am Not Renoko!
  17. 13 Eaten by Dogs
  18. 14 Enantiodromic Zones
  19. 15 Random Acts of Downward Causation
  20. 16 Carshalton Shangri-La
  21. 17 Correlation States
  22. 18 It Takes Place in a Vacuum
  23. 19 Anyone Can Make a Mistake
  24. 20 Modern Luminescence
  25. 21 Everyone’s a VIP to Someone
  26. 22 The See-Not Gate
  27. 23 Heart Sounds & Bruits
  28. 24 Spike Train
  29. 25 Lowboy Orbits
  30. 26 Lizard People from Deep Time
  31. 27 The Medium is Not the Message
  32. 28 Lay Down Your Weary Tune
  33. Acknowledgements
  34. Also by M. John Harrison

A four-bedroom  new build in the 1990s, assembled from unremitting pale brick and still looking like an architectural  drawing, it hadn’t weathered. Its profile was low, yet it was clearly not a bungalow. There was a patio like a hard standing for machinery. The white lattices of security grilles, which from a distance looked as if they had been taped on, divided every window. Sunshine glittered off the clutter of photovoltaic and hot water panels set into the shallowly-sloping roof. The only character it possessed lay at the end of its long asymmetric garden: a few trees inherited from some previous, more authentic dwelling on the site. Something resembling life would be lent it each spring by the energetic scraping conversations of the starlings that nested in its gutters. Otherwise, it reminded  Anna of a cheap toy abandoned  on a carpet; something unable to age because of the sheer purposive artificiality of the materials used to construct  it. If it was familiar, she realised, that was because it was her own house.

‘I’m not sure I like it any more,’ she told Dr Alpert that afternoon.

‘I can’t explain why.’

But she could. Too many rooms like plaster boxes. Too much furniture  that  had  aged but  somehow  never  gained  character. Clothes she longer wore. A car she never drove. It was less a house than a place to store things.

‘Every room is a box-room,’ she complained.

‘Are you sure it’s your house we’re talking about?’

Anna laughed. ‘I have three toilets,’ she said. ‘One in the en suite, one in the house bathroom and one downstairs. Who needs three toilets? I wake up at night wondering which one to use and wishing I lived in a single room  again. I know exactly what I’d want. I often imagine it.’

Dr Alpert was interested in that.

‘Tell me about the room you imagine,’ she said.

‘Why?’

Because it’s been a slow session, the doctor  thought,  and we might as well have met for tea somewhere instead. Because a wet afternoon had followed the promise of the morning. Because, she thought – glancing out of the consulting-room window at Chiswick Eyot, then down at her desk where the open case file, a vase of pale yellow narcissi and a box of Kleenex lay like something more than themselves in a clear puddle of watery light – the Thames is up as high as the road and nothing is drearier than rain on the tideway. Because today you seem like such a nice ordinary woman.

‘Because it’s interesting,’ she said. ‘Oh come on, Anna, what fun!’