Back Empty Space
Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Title page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. 1 Organs
  6. 2 Hard Goods
  7. 3 Swimming with Eels
  8. 4 Givenchy
  9. 5 Archive Style
  10. 6 Skull Radio
  11. 7 England Calling
  12. 8 Rocket Jockeys
  13. 9 Emotional Signals Are Chemically Encoded in Tears
  14. 10 Down to the River
  15. 11 Empty Space
  16. 12 I Am Not Renoko!
  17. 13 Eaten by Dogs
  18. 14 Enantiodromic Zones
  19. 15 Random Acts of Downward Causation
  20. 16 Carshalton Shangri-La
  21. 17 Correlation States
  22. 18 It Takes Place in a Vacuum
  23. 19 Anyone Can Make a Mistake
  24. 20 Modern Luminescence
  25. 21 Everyone’s a VIP to Someone
  26. 22 The See-Not Gate
  27. 23 Heart Sounds & Bruits
  28. 24 Spike Train
  29. 25 Lowboy Orbits
  30. 26 Lizard People from Deep Time
  31. 27 The Medium is Not the Message
  32. 28 Lay Down Your Weary Tune
  33. Acknowledgements
  34. Also by M. John Harrison

The only contemporary thing in the kitchen was a reconditioned laptop from the early 2000s, wired into the overhead light socket through a brownout-protector. ‘It’s all in here,’ he said, with a kind of shy irony: ‘My life.’ He showed as much pride in the machine as in his uploads to YouTube. These unsteady, ill-lit glimpses, caught on a pocket camcorder, didn’t even seem cruel, only difficult to interpret. Jittery ellipses and smears of whitish light appeared and disappeared suddenly in a black rectangle. They picked out a hedge, a patch of long grass in a field, a fence post at an odd angle. Something zigzagged into the light and out of it again. Something else turned and turned and vanished suddenly into a hedge. At the end of each clip there was the boy, an ethereal smile on his face, holding up dead rabbits by their ears. Once, the dogs put up a deer, which stared at them then walked slowly out of camera. He had set some of the videos to contemporary pastoral music, others to thirty-year-old Death Metal. Watching them galvanised him all over again, the way a passing scent had once galvanised his dogs. He sat on the bed next to Anna. There was nowhere else to sit. She could feel him trembling with excitement. ‘What do you think?’ he asked her. ‘What do you think of that!’

Once she had got over her distaste, Anna felt bored. She was glad when he turned off the computer and with a smile half diffident, half sly, pushed her down. ‘Let me get these jeans off you,’ she said. She laughed. ‘They could do with a wash.’ And later: ‘You’re hurting me a little bit.’ He went on without seeming to hear and soon she had forgotten, the way you forget the creak and bang of the bed or the people coming and going in the corridor outside a hotel room. To fuck at all is a blessing. He wasn’t Tim Waterman, but he wasn’t Michael Kearney either, and he got hard again as quickly as most boys.

Anna fell asleep. When she woke the bothy was cold and the boy was standing naked by the window gazing out across the fields towards the village. The light had begun to fade. Wisps of mist were already coming up over the river. He’d had enough for the moment, she could see. His back, whiter and thinner than she had expected, seemed vulnerable, illuminated from within. Anna watched him a minute or two, then gathered her clothes and began to get dressed. When she thought the time was right, she said:

‘I’ve got some work I need doing.’

The boy made a movement with one shoulder, a shrug or perhaps a wince. He wasn’t looking for work, he said. He had enough work.

‘What kind of work is it?’ he asked.

It wasn’t much, she said. It was just some painting.