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Chapters (142)
  1. About the Author
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. NOTEBOOK 1
  6. Brukie’s Sandy
  7. April 1972
  8. 1
  9. May 1972
  10. 2
  11. 3
  12. June 1972
  13. 4
  14. July 1972
  15. 5
  16. 6
  17. 7
  18. 8
  19. October 1972
  20. 9
  21. 10
  22. 11
  23. October 1972
  24. 12
  25. December 1972
  26. 13
  27. December 1972
  28. 14
  29. December 1972
  30. NOTEBOOK 2
  31. Brukie’s Sandy
  32. January 1973
  33. 1
  34. 2
  35. 3
  36. 4
  37. 5
  38. 6
  39. March 1973
  40. 7
  41. 8
  42. 9
  43. 10
  44. April 1973
  45. 11
  46. 12
  47. 13
  48. 14
  49. June 1973
  50. 15
  51. July 1973
  52. 16
  53. 17
  54. 18
  55. 19
  56. August 1973
  57. 20
  58. 21
  59. August 1973
  60. 22
  61. 23
  62. 24
  63. August 1973
  64. 25
  65. August 1973
  66. 26
  67. August 1973
  68. 27
  69. NOTEBOOK 3
  70. Brukie’s Sandy
  71. March 1974
  72. 1
  73. 2
  74. 3
  75. 4
  76. 5
  77. April 1974
  78. 6
  79. 7
  80. June 1974
  81. 8
  82. July 1974
  83. 9
  84. August 1974
  85. 10
  86. August 1974
  87. 11
  88. October 1974
  89. 12
  90. October 1974
  91. 13
  92. October 1974
  93. October 1974
  94. 14
  95. October 1974
  96. 15
  97. 16
  98. November 1974
  99. 17
  100. November 1974
  101. December 1974
  102. CODA
  103. Brukie’s Sandy
  104. 1
  105. 2
  106. 3
  107. 4
  108. 5
  109. 6
  110. 7
  111. 8
  112. 9
  113. 10
  114. 11
  115. 12
  116. 13
  117. 14
  118. 15
  119. 16
  120. 17
  121. 18
  122. 19
  123. 20
  124. 21
  125. 22
  126. 23
  127. 24
  128. 25
  129. 26
  130. 27
  131. April 1975
  132. Brukie’s Sandy
  133. 28
  134. 29
  135. 30
  136. 31
  137. 32
  138. 33
  139. Glossary
  140. Note
  141. Acknowledgments
  142. Works Cited

If Da and the boys had been here, Kitta and I would be doing the same. Bound to tend to them, to mind what they said. As it was, we could dance a reel with the girls as we pleased. Oftentimes the coopers and the fishers joined in. When I close my eyes now … ach, I can feel it, the stamping of feet on the wooden boards of the jetty, thump-thump in time to clapping hands. The cooling air on my clammy face as the girls swing me from arm to arm. The first time I felt a man’s warm hand at my back, I flustered about, lost my step. Almost tripped over my own boldness. But a glance around at the neat-stepping fishers, all kindly and cheerful, quelled the urge to run away. There was none to call it wrong or even to put such a thought in our heads, none to call us names. If anyone had something to say at all it was just, Eh, Fish Meggie is light on her feet, or Mary’s Kirsty’s Jeannie, ye’ve a sweet voice to hear. I wasn’t runnin’ wild, I was no disgrace to my own, but what I chose to do with the hours away from the farlins was my say-so and no-one else’s. What happiness to a fisher girl, happiness undreamed of.

The Highland girls didn’t think much of the rest of us. Polite enough, aye, but kept to themselves. They spoke in Gaelic, the strangest kind of babble, and it drew a veil between them and us. They have the blackest eyes, those girls. Beautiful. And dark hair, thick, sheening like glass so you felt you might catch your own face mirrored there if ever they shook free the tartan headsquares tucked so primly behind their ears. Was that why they looked on me, on my wild flame of hair, with such pity? And sometimes, I think, with fear? They skirted around me whenever they could. Walked the long way round to avoid crossing my path. Or was I imagining that? Perhaps, but I fancied there was a special brand of wariness in how some of the girls looked at me. No mind. I was finding my way, and would answer no more to Ginger Meggie.