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Chapters (142)
  1. About the Author
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. NOTEBOOK 1
  6. Brukie’s Sandy
  7. April 1972
  8. 1
  9. May 1972
  10. 2
  11. 3
  12. June 1972
  13. 4
  14. July 1972
  15. 5
  16. 6
  17. 7
  18. 8
  19. October 1972
  20. 9
  21. 10
  22. 11
  23. October 1972
  24. 12
  25. December 1972
  26. 13
  27. December 1972
  28. 14
  29. December 1972
  30. NOTEBOOK 2
  31. Brukie’s Sandy
  32. January 1973
  33. 1
  34. 2
  35. 3
  36. 4
  37. 5
  38. 6
  39. March 1973
  40. 7
  41. 8
  42. 9
  43. 10
  44. April 1973
  45. 11
  46. 12
  47. 13
  48. 14
  49. June 1973
  50. 15
  51. July 1973
  52. 16
  53. 17
  54. 18
  55. 19
  56. August 1973
  57. 20
  58. 21
  59. August 1973
  60. 22
  61. 23
  62. 24
  63. August 1973
  64. 25
  65. August 1973
  66. 26
  67. August 1973
  68. 27
  69. NOTEBOOK 3
  70. Brukie’s Sandy
  71. March 1974
  72. 1
  73. 2
  74. 3
  75. 4
  76. 5
  77. April 1974
  78. 6
  79. 7
  80. June 1974
  81. 8
  82. July 1974
  83. 9
  84. August 1974
  85. 10
  86. August 1974
  87. 11
  88. October 1974
  89. 12
  90. October 1974
  91. 13
  92. October 1974
  93. October 1974
  94. 14
  95. October 1974
  96. 15
  97. 16
  98. November 1974
  99. 17
  100. November 1974
  101. December 1974
  102. CODA
  103. Brukie’s Sandy
  104. 1
  105. 2
  106. 3
  107. 4
  108. 5
  109. 6
  110. 7
  111. 8
  112. 9
  113. 10
  114. 11
  115. 12
  116. 13
  117. 14
  118. 15
  119. 16
  120. 17
  121. 18
  122. 19
  123. 20
  124. 21
  125. 22
  126. 23
  127. 24
  128. 25
  129. 26
  130. 27
  131. April 1975
  132. Brukie’s Sandy
  133. 28
  134. 29
  135. 30
  136. 31
  137. 32
  138. 33
  139. Glossary
  140. Note
  141. Acknowledgments
  142. Works Cited

The staff prefer only one visitor at a time, but Avril hasn’t let go of Laura’s hand since she came in. The tests show Cooper is responding to stimuli as he should, there is no mental impairment, and in spite of all the problems ahead, the relief, the joy, of knowing that is so profound that no-one’s thinking about rules today.

When Avril finally takes a break, Laura moves in close to the pillow. Welcome back, my boy. It’s all she can manage, this broken benediction.

Movement beneath the dressings on his face, a faint gurgle from his damaged throat. And it’s like she can read it already, this new body language, these signs, this pain.

To distract him, she tells him about the Monarchs, almost ready, now, to be released; about the surprising cat who has taken a shine to her; about Gideon’s cooking, which puts hers to shame. Not that that would be hard. You remember Gideon? You met him once, briefly, when he returned the can of two-stroke. I think you two would get along.

Martine wheels in a trolley and Laura moves to the end of the bed to get out of her way. There’s a whole tray of medications, and Laura wants to know what they’re for.

This one’s slow-release methadone, Martine says, depressing the syringe into Cooper’s IV. He’ll be on this all the time, for neuropathic pain. She looks around at Laura. From nerve trauma? Nerves take a long time to regenerate. It’s a painful process.

Laura watches Cooper’s face, wondering how much is penetrating the narcotic haze of his sedation. He knows she’s there, he can hear her, but do pain and all the time and nerve damage register? As explanations of what he’s feeling?

Anti-inflammatories, Martine continues, emptying another syringe. And steroids to help soften the burn tissue. A half hour before every treatment, we’ll be giving him ketamine, too, to help him handle those. Physio, dressings—it’s a more intense type of pain.

Avril slips back into the room and sits beside her.

Martine pats the edge of the bed. OK, there, Cooper?

A low moan, gut-wrenching.

Laura glances sideways. Avril’s face is the mirror of everything Laura is feeling. She looks like she’s about to weep.

Martine carries on briskly, tidying away the plastic packaging, dropping used syringes in a special container, but her voice is sympathetic. Look, I know how hard this is, but although he’s conscious now, he’s still heavily sedated. He’s not fully aware. Twilight, they call it, a kind of half dreaming.

Another groan from Cooper, and Avril grips Laura’s wrist.

Dreaming? Laura thinks. Nightmare, more like.

Avril touches the pillow with her other hand. How long before he can talk?