“Maybe, and maybe not,” McKeon said before Ramirez could respond. “Don’t forget that Pangborn was up against a two-pronged threat—boarders inside and weapons platforms outside—and we really don’t know which was the decisive factor for him. Without the boarders, he might have tried to bluff or threatened to kill the prisoners. Hell, he might have figured you wouldn’t dare push the button, since you couldn’t kill him without killing the POWs as well!”

“But—”

“Don’t second-guess yourself!” Ramirez rumbled more forcefully. “Alistair is right. It wasn’t your fault, and it wasn’t young Clinkscales’ fault, either. It was that idiot Black Leg. Once the first shot was fired—”

He shrugged, and Honor sighed. He and Alistair were right, and she and Nimitz could both feel Benson’s firm agreement with her superiors. But still…

She sighed again, then made herself nod unhappily. Yet despite Ramirez’s firmness, she knew she was going to go right on second guessing herself, and knowing he was right wouldn’t change a thing. She’d made the call hoping the double threat would minimize any temptation to resist, and it should have worked—had worked, once the initial firefight (if you could call such a one-sided massacre that) was over. But she was the CO. It was her job to get things right, and she hadn’t, and whether it was reasonable or not, she blamed herself for it.

Still, she couldn’t afford to brood on it, either, and she opened her mouth to speak, then looked up as the briefing room door opened to admit Geraldine Metcalf and a stranger in an orange jumpsuit. Honor felt a spasm of confused emotion—distaste, anger, and an undeniable stab of fear—as she saw the jumpsuit, for she had worn one just like it in PNS Tepes’ brig, but the jumpsuit hardly registered, for it was buried in her surprise at seeing Metcalf. The situation aboard Krashnark had only just started settling down, and she’d expected Metcalf to remain aboard the cruiser as Marchant’s XO until they had everything buttoned up. But she hadn’t… and Honor stiffened in her chair as Metcalf’s emotions hit her like a hammer.

“Gerry?” she asked, half-raising a hand to reach out to the other woman before she could stop herself.

“Excuse me, Ma’am,” Metcalf said, her voice curiously flat and almost stunned sounding. She didn’t even seem to see Honor’s hand, and she clasped her own hands behind herself, coming to a sort of parade rest and straightening her spine. “I realize I shouldn’t have burst in on you like this, Milady,” she went on in that same flat voice, “but this is Commander Victor Ainspan. He was the senior Manticoran POW aboard Krashnark, and Solomon and I thought you should hear his news as quickly as possible.”

“What news would that be?” Honor’s voice sounded almost calm, but that was solely because decades of command experience had control of her vocal cords. Underneath her apparent composure the jagged spikes of stress and shock radiating from Metcalf twisted her nerves like taut cables, and she kept herself in her chair only by sheer force of will.