Chapters (48)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Epigraph
- 1. The Dream of the Blue Fox
- 1. THE DREAM OF THE BLUE FOX
- 2. THE THREE
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- ii.
- iii.
- iv.
- v.
- vi.
- vii.
- viii.
- ix.
- x.
- xi.
- xii.
- xiii.
- xiv.
- xv.
- xvi.
- xvii.
- xviii.
- xix.
- xx.
- 3. Botch Behemoth
- 3. BOTCH BEHEMOTH
- 4. CAN’T REMEMBER
- 5. Leviathan
- 5. LEVIATHAN
- 6. THE BODY
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- 7. Corpse
- 7. CORPSE
- 8. The Dark Bird
- 8. THE DARK BIRD
- 9. CAN’T FORGET
- i.
- ii.
- iii.
- 10. The Dead Astronaut
- 10. THE DEAD ASTRONAUT
- 0. A Scrap of Paper Found in Chen’s Suit
- 0. A SCRAP OF PAPER FOUND IN CHEN’S SUIT
- Also by Jeff Vandermeer
- A NOTE ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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“I still have three points to use.”
Were they all losing the point along the way?
If so, Moss least of all because she didn’t have the luxury. She was the map, the way in and the way out, the leader of the heist and its blueprint.
Chen’s equation was a wall of circles with plus signs between them, and then some basic geometry that proved he was more than the sum of his parts. Held together by math.
But Moss? Messier. Moss liked, well, moss—and lichen and limpets and sea salt and the beach and guessing the geological scale of things. And strawberries—she loved strawberries now that there were none anywhere they went. Also, Moss liked to rescue whatever animal or plant needed it. She believed they had earned it.
Moss lived based on a kind of crime that Chen had witnessed part of but neither had shared with Grayson, as if it were a wound that would bleed out if offered up. Moss kept that wall high and inviolate; for someone who shared herself so utterly, how could Grayson begrudge this one withhold?
Yet sometimes, Grayson’s bad/good eye gleaned hints, the eye so exposed to the alien that it had shut down and opened up, both. Grayson’s eye saw: Moss through a swirl of snowflakes, emerging from a tunnel, emerging from a burning shed, as if she leaked memories without her knowledge. Or was this something she projected onto her? How to make sense of that?
For Chen, Moss was a wall of circles or zeros tumbling over one another, and from each a different Moss peered out. That kept being divided by themselves until there was no room for the rest of the equation and the parentheses grew into vines and cracked the blackboard and made math into something that could never be solved. While Moss escaped through one of the circles. For Moss could bud another Moss off her big toe if she liked—as she was fond of saying.
Chen had been beholden to Moss’s kindness, in ways Grayson would never understand. You had to be there. You couldn’t conceive. Empathy wasn’t enough. Imagination wasn’t enough.
By contrast, Grayson was a single circle from which radiated calculations like the sun’s rays and a latticework of numbers between each ray. She liked to be as direct as a fist to the face. She had survived that way out in space for so many years that there was no other solution for her. She knew the stakes of their mission because she’d had so few choices before Chen, before Moss. Chen tried not to diagram her or turn her into poetry, even though it was in his nature. Did not want to solve her, for fear she’d tumble like Moss’s zeros, but, not used to it, shudder apart, disintegrate. No matter the grim set of her jaw.