“I know. Ugh. This is why I don’t know what I’m gonna do. Kane is waiting for me to decide if my feelings are mutual, and I think they could be, but I also have feelings for Knox. I just don’t know where he stands or if he cares at all.”

“So why don’t you talk to Knox and find out? Will his answer change your mind about Kane?”

I suck in a deep breath, then turn off my bathwater. “I need to, but I’m also a little scared to have that convo with him. And I’m not sure. I wish I knew if Kane wanted me just because Knox showed interest or if he would’ve eventually said something. He waited all these years and then just lost control as soon as he found out Knox stayed the night, so it makes me wonder. They’re so competitive and always trying to one-up each other. It wouldn’t surprise me if Knox acted interested to taunt Kane and vice versa. I’m the new shiny trophy they want to claim. Then once one of them wins, they’ll move on to the next thing. I don’t want to be a competition. I want to find the man I’m going to spend the rest of my life with.”

“It sounds like there are a lot of moving parts and pieces that you need to figure out, and once you do, contemplate all your options and decide what makes you happiest. If Knox wants you the way Kane wants you, then take some time to figure out how you feel about each of them.”

“At this point, I’d almost be better off flipping a coin and letting the universe decide for me.”

Harper quietly chuckles. “Or you could just choose both.”

I snort. “You’re not the first person who’s told me that today. Why couldn’t one have liked me and the other find me hideous?”

“Because you’re independent, smart, and gorgeous as hell. Guys are attracted to a confident woman who isn’t afraid to go tell them to fuck themselves.”

I chuckle. “Yeah, maybe I’ll do eeny, meeny, miny, moe instead.”

“You’ll figure it out, Hads. You always do.”

I wish I had as much confidence as she sounds because the thought of losing either of them turns my insides around.

CHAPTER FIVE

KNOX

I’ve been dreading this day all week long. Usually, holidays with my family are filled with lots of food and fun, but considering Kane’s still pissed at me, I’m not expecting a lot of conversation at the dinner table. Not to mention, he gave me a black eye, and I’ve been purposely avoiding my family ever since.