Contents ( 82)
- Dedication
- Contents
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Also by Jenny Colgan
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
Gaspard sat up. “You are sad!” he shouted, but it wasn’t really a question.
Fintan turned back. “I don’t know what’s going to happen,” he said.
“Nobody know what going to ’appen.”
“I hate the hotel.”
“So walk away. Whenever I am sad, I walk away.”
“Are you sad now?”
Gaspard eyed him up seriously. “Non.”
JOEL WATCHED FLORA carefully when Fintan came in, trying to smile as he handed over another huge gift for Douglas. “You’d better try to dress him,” she said. “I’m crap at it.”
Joel went over to her. “You’re not,” he said, surprised. “Of course you aren’t.”
Douglas was already waking up from his morning nap and preparing to make a wail. Joel looked at Flora’s face—she was almost flinching—and suddenly something dawned on him.
“Darling,” he said. “Can I take you next door for a second?”
IN FLORA’S OLD bedroom, beside a snoring Agot, Joel took Flora’s hands in his.
“All this time,” he said quietly. “All this time. I didn’t realize.”
“What?” said Flora, anxious to get on to the Rock.
“Darling,” said Joel. “Have you had trouble staying at home with the baby?”
“No!” whispered Flora loudly. “I love him!”
“I know you love him,” said Joel with infinite patience. “I mean, have you found it difficult?”
Flora froze. He knew. He had seen it. She had tried so hard to make it look like she could do everything, when it was obvious that she couldn’t. That she was failing Douglas. Pam was right. She barely saw him. It was awful.
She burst into tears.
“He doesn’t love me!” she whispered. “He prefers you! I’m shit at it! I get bored and frustrated and distracted, and he cries all the time with me! All the time!! He loves you and I’m shit at it!”
Joel wanted to laugh, although sensed, correctly, that this perhaps wasn’t the time. “He cries all the time with me too,” he said soothingly. “He’s a baby.”
“But you’re so patient with him.”
Joel looked at her. “But this is all new to me,” he said, astonished it wasn’t as clear to her as it was to him. “I’ve never had a family before. You’ve been surrounded by brothers and children and relations and so many people your whole life you don’t even realize it! I’ve had nobody. Nobody ever. And then I had you and now I have Douglas, and oh my God, Flora. Oh my God.”
They were both crying now.
“But . . . you don’t think I’m a terrible mother? For doing other things?”
“God no,” said Joel. “You’re great. And wanting to run the Rock . . . it’s okay. I’m not sure, between you and me, and I’m sure absolutely nobody else has noticed . . . I’m not sure Fintan is quite cut out for it.”
Flora swallowed a half-gulping half laugh. “You mean that?”
“I take absolutely no responsibility for interfering in MacKenzie business,” said Joel. “But I am happy, Douglas is happy, everything is well. Fintan is miserable, and as for you . . . you’ll be fine, my darling.”