Chapters (38)
- Dedication
- PART ONE
- DAYS PAST: 1897
- 1 BETTER ANGELS
- DAYS PAST: IDRIS, 1899
- 2 ASHES OF ROSES
- 3 THIS LIVING HAND
- DAYS PAST: CIRENWORTH HALL, 1900
- 4 HALF SICK OF SHADOWS
- 5 FALLEN WITH THE NIGHT
- DAYS PAST: IDRIS, 1900
- 6 NO MORE OF MIRTH
- DAYS PAST: IDRIS, 1900
- 7 FALL OF SONGS
- 8 NO STRANGE LAND
- 9 DEADLY WINE
- DAYS PAST: PARIS, 1902
- 10 LOYALTY BINDS
- 11 TALISMANS AND SPELLS
- 12 THE END OF IT
- 13 BLUE RUIN
- 14 AMONG LIONS
- PART TWO
- 15 THE WHISPERING ROOM
- 16 LEGION
- DAYS PAST: CIRENWORTH HALL, 1900
- 17 THE HOLLOW SEA
- DAYS PAST: LONDON, GROSVENOR SQUARE, 1901
- 18 DARKNESS STIRS
- 19 ALL PLACES HELL
- 20 LESS THAN GODS
- DAYS PAST: CIRENWORTH HALL, 1898
- 21 BURN
- 22 THE RULES OF ENGAGEMENT
- 23 NO ONE WHO LOVES
- Epilogue CHISWICK HOUSE, LONDON
- NOTES ON THE TEXT
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
“Not only Oscar Wilde,” Matthew had said. “But yes, Oscar Wilde. He died there.”
“I trust you’ll have a more pleasant time,” said James.
Thomas really had intended to confine his travels to Spain, but Matthew’s words had stuck with him, and when the head of the Madrid Institute had suggested that Thomas take two weeks off to see a bit more of the world, Thomas had recalled Matthew’s promises that the whole world would be changed in his eyes after he had beheld the City of Lights.
L’Hotel felt like being in someone’s home, albeit someone a bit scruffy. It was in the sixth arrondissement, which on the whole had a friendly but slightly shabby feeling. It was full of mundanes who were attending the Sorbonne nearby, and Thomas found it easy to feel part of the crowd as he strode the neighborhood streets at sunset, thinking about where to dine. He declined to check in with the Paris Institute, saw only a bare handful of Downworlders, and set out to enjoy himself.
Unfortunately, Thomas had grown used to being in easy reach of his closest friends, and even the Madrid Institute was a lively place where company was always close at hand. The solitude quickly began to wear on him. Here he knew no one and spoke essentially none of the language. Whole days passed where his only conversation was with a waiter, or a museum employee, or the desk clerk at L’Hotel.
He grew lonely, and in his loneliness he grew bored. He dutifully went to the Louvre and had thoughts about what he saw, but nobody to share them with. He wrote them down in a notebook and wondered if he would ever look at it again. He counted the days until he returned to Spain, wondering how to tell Matthew that the city itself was not enough of a companion to satisfy him.
And then, unaccountably, he saw someone he knew.
Not a friend. Alastair Carstairs was definitely not a friend. But more than an acquaintance, surely. They’d been at the Academy together. Where Carstairs had been, not to put too fine a point on it, awful. He had been one of the “mean boys,” the ones who played cruel and dangerous pranks. The ones who identified any other boy’s quality that stood out and made sure to hammer it down with the force of their contempt and their laughter. In Thomas’s case, that had been his size. He was short for his age, and narrow-shouldered, and he looked younger than he was.
Of course, that had been years ago. Thomas now towered above most people. In fact, he only spotted Alastair because he could see over the heads of the crowd between them.