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Chapters (78)
  1. Cover
  2. Back Cover Text
  3. Wanted
  4. Back Cover Text
  5. CHAPTER ONE
  6. CHAPTER TWO
  7. CHAPTER THREE
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. CHAPTER SEVEN
  12. CHAPTER EIGHT
  13. CHAPTER NINE
  14. CHAPTER TEN
  15. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  16. CHAPTER TWELVE
  17. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  19. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  21. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  22. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  23. The Siren
  24. Back Cover Text
  25. Chapter One
  26. Chapter Two
  27. Chapter Three
  28. Chapter Four
  29. Chapter Five
  30. Chapter Six
  31. Chapter Seven
  32. Chapter Eight
  33. Chapter Nine
  34. Chapter Ten
  35. Chapter Eleven
  36. Chapter Twelve
  37. Chapter Thirteen
  38. Chapter Fourteen
  39. Chapter Fifteen
  40. Chapter Sixteen
  41. Chapter Seventeen
  42. Chapter Eighteen
  43. Chapter Nineteen
  44. Chapter Twenty
  45. Chapter Twenty-One
  46. Chapter Twenty-Two
  47. Chapter Twenty-Three
  48. Chapter Twenty-Four
  49. Chapter Twenty-Five
  50. Chapter Twenty-Six
  51. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  52. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  53. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  54. Chapter Thirty
  55. Chapter Thirty-One
  56. Chapter Thirty-Two
  57. Chapter Thirty-Three
  58. Chapter Thirty-Four
  59. Chapter Thirty-Five
  60. Hold Tight
  61. Back Cover Text
  62. Prologue
  63. Chapter One
  64. Chapter Two
  65. Chapter Three
  66. Chapter Four
  67. Chapter Five
  68. Chapter Six
  69. Chapter Seven
  70. Chapter Eight
  71. Chapter Nine
  72. Chapter Ten
  73. Chapter Eleven
  74. Chapter Twelve
  75. Epilogue: Royce
  76. Epilogue: Pandora
  77. Excerpt
  78. BPA

“Just look at it. Look at Him. Isn’t He the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen, Zach?” She’d said his name but from the ethereal tone of her voice, it seemed as if she were talking to herself instead. “It’s the Praetorium. Pilate was a kind of Roman overseer of Jerusalem. He was trying to keep a very fragile peace so instead of immediately sentencing Christ to die, he orders Him to be scourged. Scourging meant a near fatal beating with a whip that had glass and bone and rocks embedded in the lashes. It was a serious punishment. He hoped that would satisfy the mob’s bloodlust. But look at the painting—no wounds. The skin of his back looks perfect. But supposedly He’s just been brutally, viciously whipped. Ciseri is emphasizing Christ’s beauty, not His beating. He’s showing Christ’s feminine side. Admittedly it’s very inaccurate, I know. Almost all depictions of the crucifixion are inaccurate. That little loincloth they always show Jesus wearing? Didn’t exist. Victims of crucifixion were stripped completely naked to add to their shame and humiliation. Artists can’t bring themselves to show just how fully human Jesus was.”

Zach said nothing, strangely spellbound by Nora’s words.

“Just imagine what this was like for Him, Zach.” Nora shook her head as if she couldn’t imagine it herself. “We talk about the Virgin Mary, but Jesus never married. He was a virgin, too. And there He was completely naked on display for the whole world to see, and right in front of Him is Mary Magdalene, who was his best friend, and His poor mother. His mother, Zach. He must have been so embarrassed, so humiliated. See these two women here. They get it.”

Zach glanced at the painting and then at Nora.

“Look how Ciseri painted Jesus. See the curve of His back and shoulders. It is a classic feminine posture. His hands are tied behind His back and His robe is falling over His hips. And all the men are just pointing and staring and gawking. But the women—see them?—they can’t bear it. One’s looking down and she—” Nora pointed at a female figure who was turned completely away from the horrible scene unfolding behind her “—she can’t even look. She has to hold on to the other woman just to keep from collapsing. And of all of them, she’s the only one whose whole face we can see.”

Nora fell into silent contemplation again and Zach watched her eyes. They were fixed on the two women in the foreground, huddled together in palpable distress. “They know what He’s feeling. The women always know. They know it isn’t just a beating or a murder they’re being forced to witness. It wasn’t even just a crucifixion. It was a sexual assault, Zach. It was a rape.”