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Chapters (31)
  1. Cover
  2. breakable things
  3. advance praise for “breakable things”
  4. also by cassandra khaw
  5. Dedication
  6. don’t turn on the lights
  7. a leash of foxes, their stories like barter
  8. radio werewolf
  9. recite her the names of pain
  10. kiss, don’t tell
  11. an ocean of eyes
  12. the truth that lies under skin and meat
  13. mothers, we dream
  14. how selkies are made
  15. a secret of devils
  16. goddess, worm
  17. a priest of vast and distant places
  18. the games we play
  19. for the things we never said
  20. she who hungers, she who waits
  21. monologue by an unnamed mage, recorded at the brink of the end
  22. you do nothing but freefall
  23. the ghost stories we tell around photon fires
  24. the quiet like a homecoming
  25. and in our daughters, we find a voice
  26. in the rustle of pages
  27. bargains by the slant-light
  28. some breakable things
  29. publication history
  30. acknowledgements
  31. about the author

This is a kind of magic too, you know? The Bard told me this. Resurrection by way of oration, every retelling a species of necromancy, and if some of it fails to be beautiful, if some of it crooks from the truth, that doesn’t matter. Stories are meant to adapt. I used to wonder what was the Bard’s purpose, if she had a purpose, if there was any meaning to putting music to our massacre, if it’d be better to just forget. Easier, safer to bury our dead in the decay and pretend it was always like this.

She asked me one night what then would be the point. If we were just going to forsake what we loved, forget why we fought, forswear that chance we might make it, although the sky is unmade into fractals, why not just let the gods win? Without stories, there is no memory, no trajectory to illuminate what came before and what might come after. Without stories, there can be no hope.

The fact that the gods don’t understand this is what will ensure we’ll find our way home. Because nothing is just fact and though the world is cinders, if enough people believe we’ll make it, there’s still soil to grow miracles.

Yes, I heard that scream too. How could I not? But don’t look back. There’s not our part of the story. Ours is the chapter engrossed with the task of holding our ground. Be careful, beloved. See how they’ve creped the borders of our barriers, their villi seeking cracks, seeking the gaps made by our grief?

Let me help.

There.

I’m going to marry you when we survive this.

I decided this on the road between here and the ruins of the last elvish capital. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner. It never seemed like the right time. But you might as well know now, as opposed to later or never, that I intend to marry you by salt and silver, with the sea as our witness and the mountains as our minister, by the shore at the edge of the world, by the house in which all this began. That I plan to wear white and in my dreams, you wear silk, and though there might be nothing but handfuls of hope to hold in the cup of my palm, I intend to make you a home and a hearth.

That smile of yours, that light in your gaze, the way you look at me even now, while the universe buckles under the weight of its deaths, that is what matters. You are my story, its beginning, its happy conclusion. More than anything else, more than this world, more than this life, you are what matters.

The door is open.

I think someone sold their soul to shatter that lock.

Are you ready? We can do this.

Take my hand—

you do nothing but freefall