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Chapters (31)
  1. Cover
  2. breakable things
  3. advance praise for “breakable things”
  4. also by cassandra khaw
  5. Dedication
  6. don’t turn on the lights
  7. a leash of foxes, their stories like barter
  8. radio werewolf
  9. recite her the names of pain
  10. kiss, don’t tell
  11. an ocean of eyes
  12. the truth that lies under skin and meat
  13. mothers, we dream
  14. how selkies are made
  15. a secret of devils
  16. goddess, worm
  17. a priest of vast and distant places
  18. the games we play
  19. for the things we never said
  20. she who hungers, she who waits
  21. monologue by an unnamed mage, recorded at the brink of the end
  22. you do nothing but freefall
  23. the ghost stories we tell around photon fires
  24. the quiet like a homecoming
  25. and in our daughters, we find a voice
  26. in the rustle of pages
  27. bargains by the slant-light
  28. some breakable things
  29. publication history
  30. acknowledgements
  31. about the author

So they left. In twos, in fours, in families, belongings belted to their backs. There was no shame to the exodus. A mild embarrassment, perhaps, expressed in the hurried goodbyes and a reluctance to converse in absolutes. We might come back, they said. Could come back, would come back, will come back if the inquest ends in profit. But no shame. The town hollowed of its borrowed citizenry and lapsed into a kind of half-hearted, shambolic alcoholism.

“I’d drink to that.” Jamie emptied the dregs of his cider, the sunlight brindling his hair with bronze. It glowed on his mouth, his lips sticky with the gleam of the sky. “Tell me, Henrik, you ever plan to go back to your wife? The Barracuda’s worried sick about you.”

He stiffened. “When I am better.”

“If you can drink six pints of bad ale and eat a whole roast dinner by yourself, you’re well enough to be a husband to the poor lass.” Jamie palmed his cheek, chin propped on the helm of his hand, and sighed, a whistle of sound that cut so sharply across the throat of the slurring hummadruz that it stopped, looked up in bleary-eyed consternation. “Ingrid misses you.”

Henrik gazed down at his hands—two fingers on the right still swaddled in bandages, a finger on the left foreshortened at the first knuckle—and clenched them both. When he spoke again, his voice was small. “I know. But we’d come to an agreement. It’s better this way. I can send her money and she can keep the business running. I’m not in a position to be a good husband yet.”

“And how will you ever get into that position again if you don’t go home? Marriages can’t heal from a distance. Are you scared of bringing trouble back to her? Is that it? Because I can tell you, it probably wasn’t the Polish who sank the ship, if that’s what you’re thinking. And even if it were, they’re hardly going to send assassins after a sailor and his wife.”

“I hope you are right.” Henrik lied. Outside, the day grew chandeliered with a salt-teethed murk, gray save for how the sunlight haloed the clouds. It bathed the city-line in a dreariness that seemed almost foreign now after a summer of faultless blue sky. Unbidden, his thoughts gyred back to his wife and memories of her long white body pouring into the sea, her expression stern, even foreboding as she sank from view.

In their time together, Henrik had only seen her smile once: an expression of radiant discovery and unassailable hope, tender in a fashion he had no idea she was capable of telegraphing, her face ordinarily so cragged with thought that Henrik had often wondered if that was why their life was barren of children, her body and her mind too preoccupied with her introspections to allow a baby into the equation.