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Chapters (31)
  1. Cover
  2. breakable things
  3. advance praise for “breakable things”
  4. also by cassandra khaw
  5. Dedication
  6. don’t turn on the lights
  7. a leash of foxes, their stories like barter
  8. radio werewolf
  9. recite her the names of pain
  10. kiss, don’t tell
  11. an ocean of eyes
  12. the truth that lies under skin and meat
  13. mothers, we dream
  14. how selkies are made
  15. a secret of devils
  16. goddess, worm
  17. a priest of vast and distant places
  18. the games we play
  19. for the things we never said
  20. she who hungers, she who waits
  21. monologue by an unnamed mage, recorded at the brink of the end
  22. you do nothing but freefall
  23. the ghost stories we tell around photon fires
  24. the quiet like a homecoming
  25. and in our daughters, we find a voice
  26. in the rustle of pages
  27. bargains by the slant-light
  28. some breakable things
  29. publication history
  30. acknowledgements
  31. about the author

“They don’t.” Ligeia lets her hair go. When it falls, it becomes plumage, black-blue like a bruise. The air is breakfast smells: pancakes and rye-cut goat butter sizzling on the pan, alcohol cooking to caramel, bacon burnt the way I like them, Chemex coffee like only our sister can make them, sweet and oilless and golden. If I wait too long, I’ll never go. “None of them ever want answers. They just want you to tell them they’re right.”

“Nonetheless—”

A crooking of a rueful smile. Ligeia’s teeth gleam barbed and bright. “—she persisted. Fucking go. Maybe, you’ll make it back in time for brunch.”

“Is this where you eat me?” the woman demands. She’s so small, the siren thinks. Like some downy, broken-backed thing that’d staggered out of its nest and fallen out of the boughs, still shrilling like it had the deed to the sea and the sky. But at least there’s wonder there in the shine of her sclera, held like a key, like this is the moment when the world unlocks and her happy ending spills free.

The siren regards her petitioner, heavy-lidded, still coked-up on miracle. “You wish.”

It must have cost them everything. Russo doesn’t rent out Gallo Lunge for cheap.

I step out into the dusk and onto an outcropping, bend down, fingers wefted over a knee, my chin on my knuckles, and watch as the little group exits their boat. They don’t look like they belong here, don’t look like they’ve ever belonged anywhere, their voices jouncing along the cliffside, screeching and stupid.

They run their fingers over whatever they can reach. All of them except for her, the one who’d collared me, cornered me, corralled me here with her prayer, her impassioned plea for him to be better, for her to matter, for this to not be true, please, just please. She holds herself like a dime-store empress, regal and brittle and sick with need.

She looks up.

I always wonder what they see. Whether it is a girl of about twenty, indeterminate height, indeterminate ethnicity, hair so wild it traps sediments of starlight, or something primordial, plumed and only precariously human. Maybe, they just see the help, someone to hold their hand as they itemize Li Galli’s trousseau of wonders, theirs for a night and the price of the world.

I never ask.

Like them, it doesn’t matter.

“Then tell me what I need to know.”

“You won’t like it.” If the woman had asked, she’d have told her that the dust isn’t dust, but destiny shaken up like a snow globe, particulates of possibility free-floating in a soup of maybe. “You humans never like it.”

“I don’t care.” She grabs the siren, fistfuls of feathers crushed in each hand. “Tell me what I need to know!”