Chapters (12)
“Look at that pile of junk! Reading off the scale. Won’t be cool enough to haul to Disposal for six months. I understand you’re Chief Engineer at Bolo Division. You built this thing. Maybe you can tell me what you had in mind here. Sure, it stood up to fire better than I hoped. But so what? A stone wall can stand and take it. This thing is supposed to be smart, supposed to feel pain like a living creature. Blunting the strike at the Complex was a valuable contribution, but how can I recommend procurement of this junk heap?”
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Why, Denny? Just tell me why you did it. You got all these military brass down on you, and on me, too. On all of us. They don’t much like stuff they can’t understand. You attacked when they figured you to run. Sure, you routed the enemy, like Bates says, but you got yourself ruined in the process. Don’t make sense. Any dumb private, along with the generals, would have known enough to get out of there. Tell me why, so I’ll have something for Bates to put on his Test Evaluation Report, AGF Form 1103-6, Rev 11/3/85.
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“All right, Unit DNE of the line. Why did you do it? This is your Commander, Unit DNE. Report! Why did you do it? Now, you knew your position was hopeless, didn’t you? That you’d be destroyed if you held your ground, to say nothing of advancing. Surely you were able to compute that. You were lucky to have the chance to prove yourself.”
For a minute I thought old Denny was too far gone to answer. There was just a kind of groan come out of the amplifier. Then it firmed up. General Bates had his hand cupped behind his ear, but Denny spoke right up.
“Yes, sir.”
“You knew what was at stake here. It was the ultimate test of your ability to perform correctly under stress, of your suitability as a weapon of war. You knew that. General Margrave and old Priss Grace and the press boys all had their eyes on every move you made. So instead of using common sense, you waded into that inferno in defiance of all logic—and destroyed yourself. Right?”
“That is correct, sir.”
“Then why? In the name of sanity, tell me why! Why, instead of backing out and saving yourself, did you charge?… Wait a minute, Unit DNE. It just dawned on me. I’ve been underestimating you. You knew, didn’t you? Your knowledge of human psychology told you they’d break and run, didn’t it?”
“No, sir. On the contrary, I was quite certain that they were as aware as I that they held every advantage.”
“Then that leaves me back where I started. Why? What made you risk everything on a hopeless attack? Why did you do it?”
“For the honor of the regiment.”