Chapters (42)
- Title Page
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-one
- Twenty-two
- Twenty-three
- Twenty-four
- Twenty-five
- Twenty-six
- Twenty-seven
- Twenty-eight
- Twenty-nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-one
- Thirty-two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-four
- Thirty-five
- Thirty-six
- Acknowledgements
- Also by Kim Harrison
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
- Cover
Shaken, I watched Pierce help him to a bench and drape a rough-silk blanket over his shoulders. Crouching, the witch forced the pixy to look at him. “How long have you been like this, old man?” he asked.
Jenks’s bloodshot green eyes focused from under his curly, smoke-stained bangs. “Forever.” He raised his glass in salute and drank some more. I didn’t like seeing him like this, but being drunk was probably why he was still alive. With a surge of recognition, I realized his pointy-bottomed glass as a solstice lightbulb with the wires removed.
Concern and empathy were heavy on Pierce as he stood and looked down at Jenks. “Time to sober up, pixy buck. Rachel wants to talk to you.”
“I’m not a buck, I’m a schmuck,” Jenks slurred. “Mattie. Oh, my Mattie.” His head bowed, and a faint dust slipped from his eyes. “She’s dead, Rache,” he said, and my heart broke again. “She’s dead, and I’m not,” he lamented as I knelt and gave him a hug, my own tears starting. “That’s not right,” he slurred. “I should be dead, too. I’m dead inside.”
“You’re not,” I said, holding him tight. It was worth it. All the smut was worth it. “She wanted you to live. Jenks, please. I know you love her, but she wanted you to live.”
“I’ve got nothing.” Red-rimmed eyes met mine when he leaned back. “You don’t understand. Everything I did, I did for her. Everything.” His head drooped, and he was silent. His fingers opened, and the vial of honey hit the floor. Pierce plucked it up before the honey could spill, and set it aside. Just that fast, Jenks was asleep.
“Do you want to take him out now?” Pierce said. “Ceri twisted a curse to turn him big so you could keep an eye on him.”
Jenks took a slow breath, his honey-stupor sleep giving him a respite. Slowly I stood and looked down at him. “No. He’d never forgive me. Let’s let him sleep it off.”
“Mattie,” Jenks mumbled. “Don’t leave me. Please …”
I eased Jenks down onto the moss-covered bench, chest heavy as I went to the table before the fire and sat where Matalina must have sat a thousand times before. I put an elbow on the table and dropped my head into my hand. Saying nothing, Pierce crouched at the fire.
I felt awful. Jenks would be awake again in five minutes, tops. This time he’d be sober. “Am I making a mistake?” I whispered.