Chapters (250)
- Dedication
- A NOTE TO READERS
- WELCOME TO EDEN MIXTAPE
- PROLOGUE
- 1. The Summer Before Seventeen
- THE SUMMER BEFORE SEVENTEEN
- NORA
- 2. Don’t Forget The Curly Fries
- DON’T FORGET THE CURLY FRIES
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 3. Busted
- BUSTED
- NATE
- 4. You’re Only Sixteen Once
- YOU’RE ONLY SIXTEEN ONCE
- NORA
- 5. Specks With Colossal Problems
- SPECKS WITH COLOSSAL PROBLEMS
- NATE
- 6. Vodka, Lime And Old Flames
- VODKA, LIME AND OLD FLAMES
- NORA
- 7. Connor James
- CONNOR JAMES
- NATE
- 8. Breathe In, Breathe Out
- BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT
- NORA
- 9. Last Summer
- LAST SUMMER
- NORA
- 10. Never Drinking Again
- NEVER DRINKING AGAIN
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 11. You Should See The Other Guy
- YOU SHOULD SEE THE OTHER GUY
- NATE
- 12. Sticks And Stones May Break My Bones
- STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES
- NATE
- 13. Bitches And Bonfires
- BITCHES AND BONFIRES
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 14. Late Night Swims
- LATE NIGHT SWIMS
- NATE
- 15. The Beginning Of The Downfall
- THE BEGINNING OF THE DOWNFALL
- NATE
- 16. Lost Stories, Found Words
- LOST STORIES, FOUND WORDS
- NORA
- 17. Lads Day Out
- LADS DAY OUT
- NATE
- 18. Carnivals And Confrontations
- CARNIVALS AND CONFRONTATIONS
- NORA
- 19. Cotton Candy And Daisy Bracelets
- COTTON CANDY AND DAISY BRACELETS
- NATE
- 20. I Got You
- I GOT YOU
- NORA
- 21. Seeing Ghosts
- SEEING GHOSTS
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 22. Pieces Of A Puzzle
- PIECES OF A PUZZLE
- NORA
- 23. The Thing About Odds
- THE THING ABOUT ODDS
- NATE
- 24. Sunrises And Cinnabons
- SUNRISES AND CINNABONS
- NORA
- 25. A Part Of Me Died
- A PART OF ME DIED
- NORA
- 26. What's His Name?
- WHAT'S HIS NAME?
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 27. Late Night Drives
- LATE NIGHT DRIVES
- NATE
- 28. You’re Naked
- YOU’RE NAKED
- NORA
- 29. The Quiet Destruction
- THE QUIET DESTRUCTION
- NATE
- 30. Wanna Fly?
- WANNA FLY?
- NATE
- 31. Frosted Flakes At 2Am
- FROSTED FLAKES AT 2AM
- NORA
- PRESENT DAY
- 32. You're Safe With Me
- YOU'RE SAFE WITH ME
- NORA
- 33. Happy Birthday Jake
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE
- NATE
- PRESENT DAY
- 34. Expect The Unexpected
- EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED
- NORA
- 35. Ripples Of The Past
- RIPPLES OF THE PAST
- NATE
- 36. Drowning In Truth
- DROWNING IN TRUTH
- NORA
- 37. Reckonings
- RECKONINGS
- NATE
- 38. Just Like Old Times
- JUST LIKE OLD TIMES
- NORA
- 39. Parallel Lines
- PARALLEL LINES
- NATE
- 40. Front Row Seats To The Shit Show
- FRONT ROW SEATS TO THE SHIT SHOW
- NORA
- 41. Nora's Mixtape #17
- NORA'S MIXTAPE #17
- NATE
- 42. Sorry On Repeat
- SORRY ON REPEAT
- NATE
- 43. Seventeen
- SEVENTEEN
- NORA
- 44. The Rent Is Free In My Head
- THE RENT IS FREE IN MY HEAD
- NATE
- 45. The Geometry Of Almost
- THE GEOMETRY OF ALMOST
- NORA
- 46. Fresh Paint Over Old Cracks
- FRESH PAINT OVER OLD CRACKS
- NATE
- 47. Found Family
- FOUND FAMILY
- NORA
- 48. Deaf Or Blind?
- DEAF OR BLIND?
- NATE
- 49. Sixty Seconds
- SIXTY SECONDS
- NORA
- 50. Where Shadows Meet
- WHERE SHADOWS MEET
- NATE
- 51. The Alchemy Of Letting Go
- THE ALCHEMY OF LETTING GO
- NORA
- 52. Father Figure
- FATHER FIGURE
- NATE
- 53. A Very Unhappy Fourth Of July
- A VERY UNHAPPY FOURTH OF JULY
- NATE
- PRESENT DAY
- 54. Like A Bull In A China Shop
- LIKE A BULL IN A CHINA SHOP
- NORA
- 55. The Responsible Adult
- THE RESPONSIBLE ADULT
- NATE
- 56. The Call
- THE CALL
- NORA
- 57. Magnata
- MAGNATA
- NATE
- 58. The Aftermath
- THE AFTERMATH
- NORA
- 59. He Won't Hurt You Anymore
- HE WON'T HURT YOU ANYMORE
- NATE
- 60. I Know What You Did Last Summer
- I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER
- NORA
- 61. Restoring What's Broken
- RESTORING WHAT'S BROKEN
- NATE
- 62. Three Words, None Of Them I Love You
- THREE WORDS, NONE OF THEM I LOVE YOU
- NORA
- 63. He Can’t, But I Will
- HE CAN’T, BUT I WILL
- NATE
- 64. A Wrinkle In Time
- A WRINKLE IN TIME
- NORA
- 65. A Flicker Of Hope
- A FLICKER OF HOPE
- NATE
- 66. Name
- NAME
- NORA
- 67. Did We Just Become Best Friends?
- DID WE JUST BECOME BEST FRIENDS?
- NATE
- 68. Dancing In The Dark
- DANCING IN THE DARK
- NORA
- 69. No More Hiding
- NO MORE HIDING
- NATE
- 70. Mic Drops And Bombshells
- MIC DROPS AND BOMBSHELLS
- NORA
- 71. The Sins We Inherit
- THE SINS WE INHERIT
- NATE
- 72. Blink And Gone
- BLINK AND GONE
- NORA
- 73. God, Can You Hear Me?
- GOD, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
- NATE
- 74. Blur
- BLUR
- NORA
- 75. Dancing With The Devil
- DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
- NATE
- 76. Becoming Through Breaking
- BECOMING THROUGH BREAKING
- NORA
- 77. Broken Promiƨeƨ
- BROKEN PROMIƧEƧ
- NATE
- 78. Choices
- CHOICES
- NORA
- EPILOGUE
- NICK
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
By the time I catch up, she's leaning against the car, arms wrapped tightly around herself like she's holding something broken together. The streetlamp casts harsh shadows across her face, making her look fragile. She won't look at me, but her trembling makes my heart ache like someone's carved out something vital.
"Nora," I say again, softer now, trying to steady my breath. Adrenaline still courses through me making my bloodied hands shake, but I force myself to move slowly, carefully, like approaching a wounded bird.
When I reach for her wrist, she flinches away sharply like my touch burns. It stops me cold, her reaction cutting deeper than any punch tonight, deeper than glass or bone could reach.
"Don't—" she starts, voice trembling like leaves in a storm. She finally turns, and the light illuminates her tear-streaked face like rain on glass. The sight guts me worse than any hit I've taken. Her eyes look to my face, expression twisting with something complex and painful.
Fear? Guilt? Pain? All of them tangled together like thorny vines.
"You're hurt," she whispers, the words falling between us like broken pieces of something we can't put back together.
"It's nothing," I say quickly, even as my jaw throbs like a second heartbeat and my knuckles sting. Blood dries on my skin like war paint, but none of that matters.
"Are you okay?" The question feels inadequate for what I see raging behind her eyes.
She shakes her head, tears falling faster now like stars breaking free.
"I can't do this, Nate," she says, voice breaking like glass under pressure. "I can't—"
Her words dissolve into a choked sob that sounds torn from somewhere deep and wounded. I step closer, hands hovering in the space between us.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper, "I didn't want you to see that, but he—" I stop, running a hand through my hair, frustration and guilt clashing inside me. "I couldn't watch him touch you like that."
Her eyes glisten in the dim light, full of emotions I can't unravel, like looking into a kaleidoscope of pain.
"Why do you always have to fix everything?" she asks, tone raw and accusing, but there's no anger—just bone-deep exhaustion.
I step closer, careful as if approaching the edge of a cliff.
"Because even though you don't need anyone saving you, where I can, I'll always try," I say simply, words rough but honest as an open wound.
Her breath hitches and I watch her defenses crumble like a castle made of sand. Her face collapses as she lets out a shaky breath that sounds like surrender, arms still hugging herself.
"Hey," I whisper, reaching for her again. This time, she doesn't pull away when my hands cradle her face, touch gentle despite split knuckles. My thumbs brush away her tears as I lean down to catch her eyes, trying to keep her in this moment with me.
"Don't cry. Please. I'm here."