I chugged one of two bottled waters in the room, wishing it were something stronger, and then paced a few laps before deciding to go back downstairs. My reflection in the mirror by the door caught my attention, and I stared into the round, icy-blue eyes staring blankly back at me. My reflection wasn’t kind. Dark strands of wavy hair hung from my messy bun. I was sober, and working, doing everything normal people did … was I happy?

A part of me hated Tyler for having to ask myself that question. If I couldn’t be happy doing something I loved, sleeping next to a patient man trying to care for me the only way he knew how, did I deserve to be? I was autonomous, making my own money and my own decisions—but staring at Ellie two-point-oh in the mirror, the sadness in her eyes was hard to ignore. It was infuriating.

The heavy door slammed behind me as I made my way down the hall. The elevator took me to the lobby, which I was surprised to find nearly empty.

“Hi,” I said to the desk clerk.

She smiled, pushing away the doodle she was working on.

“That’s pretty good,” I said, taking a second look.

“Thanks,” she said. “What can I do for you?”

I placed my credit card on the front desk. “Can I change the card on my room?”

“Sure,” she said, taking the silver rectangle from the desk. She used her mouse, clicking a few times, and then slid the card through the scanner. “For incidentals, too?”

“Yes. Everything.”

“Got it,” she said, handing it back to me. “Just sign here.”

“Thanks—” I looked at her name badge “—Darby.”

“No problem, MountainEar.”

I walked over to the bar and sat on the stool, alone except for the man behind the counter washing dishes. He had smooth, swarthy skin, and he was too young for his full head of silver hair and sideburns.

“Afternoon,” he said. He stuffed his cloth-covered fist into a glass tumbler, twisting quickly before picking up another glass from the sink. His dark eyes made him seem to be staring at me with much more intensity than he meant to.

“Hi. Just a … um … a Sprite for now.”

“On the rocks?” he teased. His smile faded, and he got to work, realizing I wasn’t in the mood for jokes.

He filled a tall glass, sliding it in front of me. His eyes sparked when someone sat on the stool to my right. It wasn’t hard to guess once he spoke.

“Toss me a Victoria’s Bitter, mate!” Liam said.

“You’re going to drink the first day on the job?” I asked. “Don’t you have a meeting in fifteen minutes?”

“No worries. I’ll have what she’s having.”

“Another Sprite,” the bartender said, disappointed.

I tore at the edges of my napkin, a million things bouncing off the edges of my mind.