Back April in Spain
Chapters (61)
  1. Landing Page
  2. APRIL IN SPAIN
  3. Dedication
  4. Contents
  5. LONDON
  6. Chapter 1
  7. DONOSTIA
  8. Chapter 2
  9. Chapter 3
  10. Chapter 4
  11. Chapter 5
  12. Chapter 6
  13. Chapter 7
  14. LONDON
  15. Chapter 8
  16. DONOSTIA
  17. Chapter 9
  18. Chapter 10
  19. Chapter 11
  20. Chapter 12
  21. Chapter 13
  22. Chapter 14
  23. Chapter 15
  24. Chapter 16
  25. DUBLIN
  26. Chapter 17
  27. Chapter 18
  28. Chapter 19
  29. Chapter 20
  30. Chapter 21
  31. Chapter 22
  32. Chapter 23
  33. Chapter 24
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Chapter 26
  36. Chapter 27
  37. Chapter 28
  38. Chapter 29
  39. Chapter 30
  40. Chapter 31
  41. Chapter 32
  42. Chapter 33
  43. Chapter 34
  44. Chapter 35
  45. DONOSTIA
  46. Chapter 36
  47. Chapter 37
  48. Chapter 38
  49. Chapter 39
  50. Chapter 40
  51. Chapter 41
  52. Chapter 42
  53. Chapter 43
  54. Chapter 44
  55. Chapter 45
  56. DUBLIN
  57. Chapter 46
  58. Also by John Banville
  59. About the Author
  60. By the Same Author
  61. Copyright

His attachment to Phoebe Griffin he regarded with a certain bemusement. On the face of it – and although her face was quite a pretty one, or so he considered it – she was not his type, not really.

He had met her first at a dinner at his Tante Evelyn’s house. He recalled that rainy night with a high degree of warmth, yet also with a faint sense of misgiving. By now, Phoebe and he had been ‘going out’, as the Irish said, for nearly four years. When he looked back over that time, he could find nothing substantial to regret or be resentful of, in Phoebe’s behaviour or his own. Phoebe was a modern young woman, and made no excessive demands on him, in terms of his time or of his emotions. She never used the word ‘love’ to describe what she felt for him, and he was grateful to her on that account. Which need not mean that she didn’t love him, or that he didn’t love her. But he set great store by restraint, in word as much as in deed.

The way he put it to himself was that they were together but free. He assumed Phoebe would agree with this formula, and therefore he had not deemed it necessary to test her on it. She was his girlfriend – another word that embarrassed him, but he could find no acceptable substitute – and he was fond of her. However, his work came first. He knew she knew that, because she had assured him of it. Or at least, he had assured her it was so, and she had not disagreed or raised an objection.

On the whole, then, he was content with the relationship, and saw no reason to alter it. Yes, there was that lingering question as to whether he should have waited in hope of finding someone more suited to his temperament. But he was not so naive as to imagine that there existed somewhere a person who would be for him the exact ‘Miss Right’.

He supposed he and Phoebe would marry, one day, but that day was still a hazily long way off. The fact was, he gave no more thought to the future than he, and his Tante Evelyn, did to the past. As a medical researcher, as a scientist, he saw himself as living wholly in the present. He often put it this way, in his talks with Phoebe – ‘I’m a being of the present tense’ – and her usual response was a smile. It didn’t trouble him that the smile at times struck him as enigmatic, or that it might, if he examined it closely enough, contain a trace of mockery. She was not difficult to comprehend, since she was driven by what drove everyone else, and how could he be mocked for characterising himself as a man of the moment?