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Back Any Way the Wind Blows
Chapters (100)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Notice
  3. Dedication
  4. 1
  5. 2
  6. 3
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  95. EPILOGUE
  96. AGATHA
  97. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  98. Also by Rainbow Rowell
  99. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  100. Newsletter Sign-up

“No, you asked Penelope not to. Me, you left a note.”

He unchains the door but doesn’t open it. He’s looking at the floor. “I can’t do this with you,” he whispers.

“Too fucking bad, Snow. Let me in.”

He turns away from me, flinging the door open with his tail. I try to follow, but the threshold pushes me back.

“You know I need an invitation,” I hiss.

Snow glances over his shoulder, like maybe this is his reprieve. But he flicks his tail at me, motioning me in.

It’s enough. The pressure in the doorway eases, and I storm in, slamming the door behind me. I told myself I’d be calm when I found him. Warm. Understanding. But all I am is angry—I’m livid—with him, with Bunce, with myself.

I turned my back for five minutes, and literally everything fell apart. This is why I haven’t turned my back on him in a year! This is why I’ve been rushing home from class to sit next to him on the sofa. Because I couldn’t trust him. I could never trust him …

The room is empty. Snow is standing at a window, looking at the closed curtains. His jeans are riding low, and his tail is tucked between his legs. His wings are hitched up around his ears. For some reason, there’s a dagger tucked in his back pocket. “All right,” he says, “so you found me. I can’t hide from you.”

“You bloody well can’t.”

“So what do you want me to say?”

I come up behind him. “I want you to explain what’s going on!”

He doesn’t turn around. He doesn’t even raise his voice. “You know what’s going on, Baz. I’ve already told you.”

“You haven’t even answered my texts, Simon!”

“I told you, I keep telling you…” He sounds so flat, like none of this affects him—like I don’t affect him.

No. Unacceptable. Untenable. I always affect him.

I grab his bare shoulder. “You never tell me anything!”

Snow whips around, nearly clipping me with his wing. “I told you I’m done!”

“Done what?” Done with me, he means. I know that’s what he means.

“Done!” he shouts, his wings spread wide. “I already told you. Christ I—I tried to tell you! Done … pretending!”

“Pretending what?” I shout. Like I don’t know. Like it isn’t already killing me.

“Pretending … this, Baz. Us. Pretending I can…”

I’m dying.

I’m dying, this is death.

Simon’s in my stomach, he’s in my heart, and he’s punching.

“Use your words, Snow. For fuck’s sake.”

SIMON

I can’t do this with him.