It’s a miracle I ever made it to Aïn Deb. My God this has been some adventure. As soon as we got off the plane at Houari Boumédienne International Airport, Algiers, all the passengers – men, women and children – were rounded up and herded into the middle of the runway where we hung around for more than an hour as driving rain and freezing wind whipped at us. The men were coughing, some of the older, weaker ones collapsed, the babies were crying, their mothers doing their best to keep them quiet, desperately trying to comfort them. There was a lot of whispering. We were soaked to the skin. It’s one thing to read about it, to hear about it, you have to picture 200 people with all their luggage, standing terrified, on the tarmac in weather like this, watched over by a mob of guards invisible in their oilskins. An hour later, this black car pulled up carrying four guys in dark green raincoats and dark glasses. Doors slamming, bang, bang, bang, bang, they all got out. Special agents. Something was obviously about to happen, these guys had us shitting ourselves. The head guy put up his collar, pushed his sunglasses back off his forehead and began to circle us silently, slowly, very slowly, staring intently at each of us in turn, though we had no idea why. He’d say to someone: ‘You, stand over there . . . and you . . . and you . . . You, step forward . . . and you . . . you go over and stand with them . . . You there, stop trying to hide, get out here.’ He glowered at the women too, to one he said, ‘Take off your glasses!’, to another woman, ‘Pull up your hood!’, to an old man who’d fallen down, he barked, ‘Get up!’ Just his voice had me shitting bricks; it was flat, unemotional, colder than you could possibly imagine. Obviously, no one had ever dared to disobey this guy – he could be at home in bed or sitting behind a desk and all over the country people would meekly obey him. When I think that Com’Dad has to argue his case, then take it before a judge, I realise that there’s something not right with the system in Algeria. Or maybe the system in France. I was the sixteenth to be pulled out of the line. He looked at me, never blinking, and said dismissively, ‘You, over there with the rest of them.’ After me, he picked out five more. Mostly young guys. The rest of the passengers were led to a stunted little building with a huge sign on the front saying in three languages: Hall d’Arrivée. Bienvenue en Algérie. Arrivals Hall. Welcome to Algeria and something in Arabic, which I can’t read or write. Our fellow-travellers had already forgotten our shared nightmare – not one of them turned to say goodbye or to pity us, they were smiling, pushing and jostling to get away as quickly as possible. They were lucky. Some time later, when the water was up to our ankles, a covered military truck screeched to a halt in front of us. The head guy gave some order and the special agents told us to hand over our passports, our tickets, our hand luggage and get into the truck. I couldn’t believe it, I was shaking I was so scared, it looked like we were going to be deported. Back in France I’d never been scared of the cops, actually I got a buzz out of winding them up, watching them try to work out how to play it. Now, I was paralysed, I couldn’t think, it felt like I would never move again even if they suddenly said it was a joke and we were all on candid camera. Then the truck started up and zoomed towards this place that looked like it an old cargo hold. Huge rusting hangars separated by paths a hundred metres wide, stuff lying around everywhere, loose concrete slabs, an armoured car parked under a water tower and everywhere you looked sandbagged army posts, each manned by two soldiers hugging a machine gun. Not another living soul. Nobody seemed to breathe, all you could hear was the howl of the wind, the hammering of the rain, a shriek of rusted metal that set your teeth on edge. Just the feel of the place had me squirming. The driver turned the truck into one of the hangars and slammed on the brakes, which squealed like scalded cats. He kept his foot to the floor, revving the engine hard for a long time, then cut the ignition. The hangar almost exploded with the sudden terrible silence that dropped on it like a bomb. A silence like that can turn your bowels to water. I’d never have believed that silence could be so deafening. It’s insane, it’s like saying someone is alive and dead at the same time. And that’s what we were, more dead than alive. Some of them were hacking like they were about to cough up their lungs, others were grey and pasty, my eyes were watery with acid tears. I wondered for a minute if the driver was trying to exterminate us with the exhaust fumes, but since he was in the hangar with us, I figured he probably wasn’t, he was just getting the oil out of his engine. I mean no one would be stupid enough to gas themselves, flammable gases stink so badly you can smell them a mile off, it’s not like smelling roses. A Sonderkommando who forgets to get out of the gas chamber in time doesn’t last too long. The hangar was so big and so ramshackle that it would have taken thirty trucks a whole week to eliminate us, as Rachel would put it. By then we’d have died of starvation. Or madness. I thought about poor Rachel, this was how he died, his lungs dried up, his heart bruised, his body broken. Alone in his garage. More alone than anyone in the world. After that, everything happened quickly. We were ordered to get out, the truck drove off and the door of the hangar slammed shut with the boom of an atomic bomb. They left us in the dark without a word, without a look. At first everyone panicked, we could hear nothing except the wind shaking the hangar and the rain gushing in waterfalls from the roof, but then we calmed down and huddled together in a corner to keep warm. A couple of people started smoking furiously like this was their first cigarette of the day, or their last. An hour later we were half-dead from cold, from hunger, from thirst. And this was just the beginning.