It’s two in the morning, and I’m trying to find the courage to make my way downstairs. James was right, it isn’t weird for me to be in his room, but this feels different. I think Monica is asleep but my mother is known to be an insomniac and sometimes makes her way to the kitchen for a late snack to go with her late night TV. My father is probably asleep, but he’s known to wake up because my parents are like magnets and when one of them moves, it’s as if the other can feel it even in their subconscious.

What if I run into one of them while I’m sneaking down there?

A FaceTime call breaks my thoughts as I’m pacing the floor. I almost drop the phone when I see what’s on the screen when I accept the call. James is completely naked with his phone set up between his legs as he strokes his hard cock on screen. “Baby, stop overthinking it. Just get down here.”

“Easy for you to say…I am the one that has to do all the work!”

He sits up. “Want me to come up and get you?”

“No!” I tell him. “I’m coming.”

“Any longer than two minutes and I’m coming up there.” He tells me before ending the call. I slide my phone into the front pocket of my hooded sweatshirt. Well, actually one of James’ sweatshirts.

Gab, get a grip. This is your house. If you act like you’re sneaking around, you look more guilty. Just move like you normally do.

The house is quiet as I move slowly down the stairs. I walk through the living room and dining room feeling slightly unnerved being down here all by myself in the dead of night. I reach for the door to the basement and open it slowly. The light is on and I move down the carpeted stairs and turn the corner to descend the remaining stairs to the living area of the basement where I spot a naked James on the couch staring at me. “Fucking finally.” He sighs and he’s off the couch and in front of me pressing his lips to mine and lifting me into his arms. I kiss him back with equal enthusiasm as he moves us into his bedroom just off the living area. He locks the door behind us and the click makes this whole situation feel so taboo.

I’m going to fuck my brother in the house we grew up in.

In the room I’ve been in a hundred times under different pretenses.

The room I fantasized about losing my virginity in.