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Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Half Title
  3. By the Same Author
  4. Dedication
  5. Acknowledgements
  6. Prologue
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Chapter 2
  10. Chapter 3
  11. Chapter 4
  12. Chapter 5
  13. Chapter 6
  14. Chapter 7
  15. Chapter 8
  16. Chapter 9
  17. Chapter 10
  18. Chapter 11
  19. Chapter 12
  20. Chapter 13
  21. Part Two
  22. Chapter 14
  23. Chapter 15
  24. Chapter 16
  25. Chapter 17
  26. Chapter 18
  27. Chapter 19
  28. Chapter 20
  29. Chapter 21
  30. Chapter 22
  31. Chapter 23
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Chapter 25
  34. Chapter 26
  35. Chapter 27
  36. Chapter 28
  37. Part Three
  38. Chapter 29
  39. Chapter 30
  40. Chapter 31
  41. Chapter 32
  42. Chapter 33
  43. Chapter 34
  44. Chapter 35
  45. Chapter 36
  46. Chapter 37
  47. Chapter 38
  48. Chapter 39
  49. Chapter 40
  50. Chapter 41
  51. Chapter 42
  52. Part Four
  53. Chapter 43
  54. Chapter 44
  55. Chapter 45
  56. Chapter 46
  57. Chapter 47
  58. Chapter 48
  59. Chapter 49
  60. Chapter 50
  61. Chapter 51
  62. Chapter 52
  63. Chapter 53
  64. Chapter 54
  65. Chapter 55
  66. Chapter 56
  67. Chapter 57
  68. Chapter 58
  69. Epilogue

Abbott found himself leaning forward. ‘Jason Scutter?’

‘Yeah, him.’

His dad was drifting a little. ‘Yeah, go on,’ pressed Abbott. ‘He saw Scutter in his car?’

‘Yeah, that’s what he said. He said he saw him in his car . . .’

‘Yeah. And?’

‘He said there was another bloke with him.’

Chapter 7

CHAPTER 7

It was rather – no, more than that – it was really childish. But when Fiona had got together with the guy from the Ministry of Defence, and when that guy had moved into the home that Fiona had previously shared with Abbott, Abbott had come up with a rather childish nickname for him.

He had called him Cuckoo.

He and Cuckoo had not exactly hit it off. Abbott was rough-hewn special forces. A soldier trained to kill and good at it. Cuckoo was, as far as Abbott was concerned, a pen pusher, a paper shuffler. The two men could hardly have been more different.

But then, when Nathan had disappeared, Cuckoo made the trip to Singapore to alert Abbott. The search to find Nathan could scarcely have ended more badly, but throughout it all, Cuckoo had been a huge help and support. To say that Abbott had gained a new understanding and respect for him was putting things mildly.

Still, when it was all over, Cuckoo had to go back to Fiona. The two were by now married and whatever she was told, Fiona could not let go of the notion that Abbott was primarily responsible for Nathan’s death. That, more than anything, put a stop to any burgeoning friendship between the two men.

Well, that and the fact that Abbott’s only true friend came in cans and bottles.

Fiona was right, of course, despite what Cuckoo told her. Abbott was responsible. Of course he was. Not directly. He had not literally lit the fire that ended up causing Nathan’s death. But metaphorically? Yes, in many ways, he had. Fiona was right. The issue being that she could not possibly, not in a million years, have hated Abbott as much as he hated himself.

Now, Abbott found himself at RAF Chicksands, where he paid his way into the museum and had a wander around the Ministry of Defence exhibits, passing among other visitors, staring in at glass-fronted cabinets displaying weapons of the past, uniforms, as well as a reconstruction of an air-raid shelter where kids had their pictures taken wearing gas masks. Piped into the exhibits were sounds of battle, explosions and gunshots that made Abbott’s palms sweat.

He located a quiet corner of the museum, unhooked his backpack and reached inside for the trusty bottle, took a quick hit and put it back, waited for the booze to do its job.

‘Abbott.’

The voice came from behind and he wheeled quickly to see that Cuckoo stood behind him, wearing a suit.

‘You look well, Cuckoo,’ said Abbott, stuffing the bottle back in his bag under Cuckoo’s disapproving gaze. ‘Have you lost weight?’