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Chapters (69)
  1. Cover
  2. Half Title
  3. By the Same Author
  4. Dedication
  5. Acknowledgements
  6. Prologue
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Chapter 2
  10. Chapter 3
  11. Chapter 4
  12. Chapter 5
  13. Chapter 6
  14. Chapter 7
  15. Chapter 8
  16. Chapter 9
  17. Chapter 10
  18. Chapter 11
  19. Chapter 12
  20. Chapter 13
  21. Part Two
  22. Chapter 14
  23. Chapter 15
  24. Chapter 16
  25. Chapter 17
  26. Chapter 18
  27. Chapter 19
  28. Chapter 20
  29. Chapter 21
  30. Chapter 22
  31. Chapter 23
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Chapter 25
  34. Chapter 26
  35. Chapter 27
  36. Chapter 28
  37. Part Three
  38. Chapter 29
  39. Chapter 30
  40. Chapter 31
  41. Chapter 32
  42. Chapter 33
  43. Chapter 34
  44. Chapter 35
  45. Chapter 36
  46. Chapter 37
  47. Chapter 38
  48. Chapter 39
  49. Chapter 40
  50. Chapter 41
  51. Chapter 42
  52. Part Four
  53. Chapter 43
  54. Chapter 44
  55. Chapter 45
  56. Chapter 46
  57. Chapter 47
  58. Chapter 48
  59. Chapter 49
  60. Chapter 50
  61. Chapter 51
  62. Chapter 52
  63. Chapter 53
  64. Chapter 54
  65. Chapter 55
  66. Chapter 56
  67. Chapter 57
  68. Chapter 58
  69. Epilogue

Answer: because he wanted to confront his father with it. He wanted his father to know that his lies had been exposed.

A woman on reception directed him to another building across the quad. There, he asked where he might find Ted Abbott, and was told to wait.

Inside was warm with a smell like school dining halls, not especially pleasant but at the same time almost nostalgic, making him feel like a kid again.

‘Mr Abbott?’

Abbott looked up, startled, coming right back down to earth with a bump, his hand slapping his thigh before he realised that no sidearm was there.

‘Yes?’ he said. ‘Sorry. I was miles away. Years away, actually.’

‘That’s quite all right,’ she said, and to his surprise took a seat beside him. ‘I was wondering if I could have a quick word before you go in to see your father?’

‘Of course.’ He leaned away slightly, worried she might smell the booze on him.

‘As far as I know you haven’t seen your father in a while, so you may not be aware of this – there’s something I need to tell you before you go in.’

‘Go on.’

‘He was recently diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease.’

‘I see.’

‘I’m sorry,’ she said, and Abbott sat, nodding but shell-shocked as she went on to say that with any luck his father, being in his late-seventies, was likely to die with Parkinson’s rather than of it, and how the onset of the condition was gradual, and that Abbott might not even be aware of its presence because sufferers could be quite lucid one moment, confused and incoherent the next. That their long-term memory was often much better than their short-term memory.

‘You might find that you need to be very patient with him,’ you do, you cannot lose your patience with him. Don’t show irritation or anger.’

With that, she stood, indicating that he should follow, and led him along the hallway to his father’s room. She knocked, ushered him in, announced him. ‘Mr Abbott? Ted? It’s your son Alex to see you.’ She promised to organise some tea and then left them to it, closing the door gently behind her.

And there they were. Father and son. The older Abbott in his wheelchair, positioned in front of the TV, which was on, some antiques programme. The younger one hovering by the door, thinking, My dad has Parkinson’s. He’s been given a death sentence.

‘Hi, Dad,’ said Abbott, at last.

‘Hi, Alex,’ said his father.

Abbott, about to take a seat, stopped, excused himself to the en-suite bathroom and took a nip. He returned to find that his father had switched off the TV and positioned his wheelchair by the window, which although the radiator blazed away, was open a crack, letting in a welcome breath of fresh air.