Back Against the Loveless World
Chapters (38)
  1. Cover
  2. Also by Susan Abulhawa
  3. Dedication Page
  4. Glossary
  5. I. Kuwait
  6. The Cube, East
  7. Dance, Ruby River
  8. Um Buraq
  9. II. Iraq
  10. The Cube, West
  11. Six Months
  12. III. Jordan
  13. The Cube, North
  14. Unsteady Earth
  15. IV. Palestine
  16. The Cube, South
  17. The Layers of Absence
  18. A World Beneath & “Our Spot” Above
  19. V. Jordan, Again
  20. The Cube, Up & Down
  21. Money Softens the Heart
  22. VI. Palestine, Always
  23. The Cube, the Space Between
  24. Anatomy of Home
  25. Chaos Theory
  26. Harvest
  27. Homecoming
  28. A Time for Us
  29. Redeeming History
  30. VII. Between Freedom
  31. The Cube, the Unreachable Beyond
  32. Day One
  33. Week Two
  34. Week Three
  35. Weeks Four & Five
  36. Weeks Six, Seven, Eight & Nine
  37. Joy
  38. Acknowledgments

The young man was waiting for me when I emerged. “Madam, I’m very sorry to bother you, but I am supposed to get you on e-mail before you go,” he said, explaining that he needed to complete the entire task in order to get paid. The account had already been set up, and he showed me how to open it. “This is the log-in information. Write it down,” he said, then showed me how to change my password.

“As you can see, you already have one e-mail,” he said, pointing to a line on the screen. He instructed me how to open it and leaned in when I did. I pushed him out of the way. “I can read on my own,” I said.

Dear Nahr,

I hope it’s okay to call you by that name. I am sorry I could not be there myself today. Something came up with the family, but I did my best not to disappoint you. If you’re reading this, it means that the courier delivered a sealed package for you. I owe you a debt and it gives me pleasure to think I might be of some help to you now. I believe it was fate that we ran into each other.

Your friend,

Mohsin

P.S. The phone is paid for one year in Jordan. When you get to Palestine, you will need to buy a local SIM card.

I clicked the box labeled Reply and typed with two fingers: You never owed me anything. But whatever debt you may have felt, consider it paid in full and more. P.S. The package was still sealed, and the young man went above and beyond.

Then I clicked Send.

“Tell me when you’re ready to respond, I will show you how,” the young man said.

“Boy, I already did it. I’m good at the Internet,” I said. He looked at me with a blank stare. “But I have some questions. Sit down. I’ll buy you a cup of tea. I told Mohsin you went above and beyond.”

The boy relented and sat with me for some tea. He answered my questions with the limited patience one has for a small child. I learned that I did not have to come back to the same computer forever to access my mailbox. I could do that from any computer in the world. I thought the e-mail I sent would take days to be delivered, but he assured me it was already in the recipient’s mailbox. Just like that. I didn’t believe him, so he demonstrated with a test e-mail from his own e-mail to mine. Finally he explained what a SIM card was.

“Madam, thank you for the tea, but I really must go,” he said. “Best of luck to you.”