Chapters (28)
“That fleet—” Loyse half turned to the windows. Could it possibly be that some invader, reckless enough to sacrifice his ships to win foothold on the cape and so a path to Verlaine, sailed out there? That was a mad thought. The ships were doomed; few if any of their crewmen could win the shore alive, and there they would find the men of Verlaine had prepared the grimmest of welcomes.
“Fleet?” echoed the girl. “There is no fleet — only life — or death. You have something of us within you, Loyse. Prove yourself now and win!”
“Something of you? Who are you — or what?”
“I am nobody and nothing. Ask me rather what I was, Loyse of Verlaine, before your people pulled me from the sea.”
“What were you?” the other asked obediently as might a child at an elder’s command.
“I was one of Estcarp, woman of the sea coast. Now do you understand? Yes, I had the Power — until it was reft from me in the hall below us here, while men laughed and cheered the deed. For the gift is ours — sealed to our women — only while our bodies remain inviolate. To Verlaine I was a female body and no more. So I lost what made me live and breathe — I lost myself.
“Can you understand what it means to lose yourself?” She studied Loyse. “Yes, I almost believe that you do, since you move now to protect what you have. My gift is gone, crushed out as one crushes out the last coal of an unwanted fire, but the ashes of it remains. So do I now know that one greater than I had ever hoped to be comes in on the drive of the storm. And she shall determine more than one of our futures!”
“A witch!” Loyse did not shrink; instead excitement flared. The power of the women of Estcarp was legendary. She had fed upon every tale which had come out of the north concerning them and their gifts. And she smarted now with the realization of opportunity lost.
Why had she not known of this woman before — learned of her—
“Yes, a witch. So they name us when they understand us but little. But do not think to have anything of me now, Loyse. I am only the charred brands of a long quenched fire. Bend your will and wit to aid the other who comes.”
“Will and wit!” Loyse laughed harshly.”Wit I have and will, but no power here, ever. Not one soldier will obey me, nor stay his hand at my bidding. Better appeal to Bettris. When my father is in humor with her, she has some slight recognition from his people.”