I approached my office door and saw a stiletto of light slashed diagonally across the floor. The door was ajar, perhaps an inch. I wondered if the night cleaning crew had let Roberts in. If so I’d have a talk with the building manager over that breach of security.

When I reached the door I knew something was wrong. There were scratch marks around the knob, metal filings in the rug. Yet, as if working from a script, I entered.

“Mr. Roberts?”

The waiting room was empty. I went into the consultation office. The man on my sofa wasn’t Bill Roberts. I’d never met him but I knew him very well.

Stuart Hickle slumped in the soft cotton cushions. His head—what was left of it—was propped against the wall, the eyes staring vacantly at the ceiling. His legs splayed out spastically. One hand rested near a wet spot on his groin. He had an erection. The veins in his neck stood out in bas relief. His other hand lay limply across his chest. One finger hooked around the trigger of an ugly little blue steel pistol. The gun dangled, butt downward, the muzzle an inch from Hickle’s open mouth. There were bits of brain, blood and bone on the wall behind the head. A crimson splotch decorated the soft-green print of the wallpaper like a child’s fingerpainting. More crimson ran out of the nose, the ears and the mouth. The room smelled of firecrackers and human waste.

I dialed the phone.

The coroner’s verdict was death by suicide. The final version went something like this: Hickle had been profoundly depressed since his arrest and, unable to bear the public humiliation of a trial, he’d taken the Samurai way out. It was he, as Bill Roberts, who’d set up the appointment with me, he who’d picked the lock and blown his brains out. When the police played me tapes of his confession the voice did sound similar to that of “Roberts”—at least similar enough to prevent my saying it wasn’t a match.

As for why he’d chosen my office for his swan song, the supporting cast of shrinks had an easy answer: Because of my role as the victims’ therapist, I was a symbolic father figure, undoing the damage he’d perpetrated. His death was an equally symbolic gesture of repentance.

Finis.

But even suicides—especially those connected with felonies—must be investigated, the loose ends tied up, and there began a buck-passing contest between the Beverly Hills Police Department and L.A.P.D. Beverly Hills acknowledged the suicide had taken place on their turf but claimed that it was an extension of the original crimes—which had occurred in West L.A. Division territory. Punt. West L.A. would have liked to kick it back but the case was still in the papers and the last thing the department wanted was a dereliction-of-duties story.