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Chapters (55)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to Weighed and Wanting
  6. 1. A Bad Weather Holiday
  7. 2. An Eventful Walk
  8. 3. Hester Alone
  9. 4. The Aquarium
  10. 5. Amy Amber
  11. 6. Cornelius and Vavasor
  12. 7. Hester and Amy
  13. 8. A Beginning in Hester
  14. 9. A Private Exhibition
  15. 10. Vavasor and Hester
  16. 11. The Concert Room
  17. 12. Sudden Change
  18. 13. Yrndale
  19. 14. Down the Hill
  20. 15. Out of the Frying Pan
  21. 16. Waiting a Purpose
  22. 17. Major H. G. Marvel
  23. 18. The Major and Vavasor
  24. 19. A Walk Along the River
  25. 20. An Unpleasant Interview
  26. 21. Corney’s Holiday
  27. 22. A Distinguished Guest
  28. 23. Courtship in Earnest
  29. 24. Calamity
  30. 25. In London
  31. 26. A Talk with the Major
  32. 27. A Scuffle
  33. 28. Gartley and the Major
  34. 29. Further Down
  35. 30. Differences
  36. 31. Deep Calleth Unto Deep
  37. 32. Deliverance
  38. 33. On the Way Up
  39. 34. The Attic Room
  40. 35. Amy and Corney
  41. 36. Miss Vavasor
  42. 37. Mr. Christopher
  43. 38. An Arrangement
  44. 39. Things at Yrndale
  45. 40. The Return
  46. 41. A Sad Beginning
  47. 42. Mother and Son
  48. 43. Miss Dasomma and Amy
  49. 44. The Sick Room
  50. 45. Vengeance Is Mine
  51. 46. Father and Daughter-in-law
  52. 47. The Message
  53. 48. A Family
  54. 49. A Birthday Gift
  55. ENDNOTES

For a father not to forgive is in truth far worse than for a son to need forgiveness. Such a father, as well as the son, will of course go from bad to worse unless he repents. The shifty, ungenerous spirit of compromise awoke in Raymount. He would be very good, very gentle, very kind to everyone else in the house. He would walk softly—he was not ready to walk uprightly—but he would postpone his forgiveness. He knew his feelings toward Corney were wearing out the heart of his wife—but he would not yield. There was little Mark, however. He would make more of him, know him better, and make the child know him better.

He went to see how his wife was. Finding that she was a trifle better, he found himself annoyed. In the selfishness of his misery, he looked upon her happiness at having her worthless son home as a lack of sympathy with himself. He did not allude to Cornelius, but said he was going for a walk, and went to find Mark—with a vague hope of consolation in the child who had clung to him so confidently in the night. He had forgotten it was not to him that the boy’s soul had clung, but to the father of both of them.

Mark was in the nursery, as the children’s room was still called. When Mark heard his father’s step, he bounded to meet him. When his sweet moonlit rather than sunshiny face appeared at the door, the gloom on his father’s yielded a little. The gleam of a momentary smile broke over it, and he said kindly:

“Come, Mark, I want you to go for a walk with me.”

He was not doing the right thing in taking him out, but he was not thinking of that just now. He ought to have known that the boy was still too weak for anything to be called a walk. Neither was the weather fit for his going out. But absorbed in his own trouble, the father did not think of his weakness, and Hester was not there to object. So away they went. Mark was delighted to be his father’s companion, never doubting all was right, and forgot his weakness as entirely as his father did.

With his heart in such a state, the father naturally had next to nothing to say to the boy, and they walked on in silence. But that did not affect Mark—he was satisfied to be with his father whether or not he spoke to him. From God he had learned not to dislike silence. Without knowing it, he was growing tired as they walked. When weariness at last became conscious, it came upon him all at once and poor Mark found he could scarcely put one leg in front of the other.