Chapters (55)
- Title Page
- Copyright Page
- CONTENTS
- Foreword to The Cullen Collection
- Introduction to Weighed and Wanting
- 1. A Bad Weather Holiday
- 2. An Eventful Walk
- 3. Hester Alone
- 4. The Aquarium
- 5. Amy Amber
- 6. Cornelius and Vavasor
- 7. Hester and Amy
- 8. A Beginning in Hester
- 9. A Private Exhibition
- 10. Vavasor and Hester
- 11. The Concert Room
- 12. Sudden Change
- 13. Yrndale
- 14. Down the Hill
- 15. Out of the Frying Pan
- 16. Waiting a Purpose
- 17. Major H. G. Marvel
- 18. The Major and Vavasor
- 19. A Walk Along the River
- 20. An Unpleasant Interview
- 21. Corney’s Holiday
- 22. A Distinguished Guest
- 23. Courtship in Earnest
- 24. Calamity
- 25. In London
- 26. A Talk with the Major
- 27. A Scuffle
- 28. Gartley and the Major
- 29. Further Down
- 30. Differences
- 31. Deep Calleth Unto Deep
- 32. Deliverance
- 33. On the Way Up
- 34. The Attic Room
- 35. Amy and Corney
- 36. Miss Vavasor
- 37. Mr. Christopher
- 38. An Arrangement
- 39. Things at Yrndale
- 40. The Return
- 41. A Sad Beginning
- 42. Mother and Son
- 43. Miss Dasomma and Amy
- 44. The Sick Room
- 45. Vengeance Is Mine
- 46. Father and Daughter-in-law
- 47. The Message
- 48. A Family
- 49. A Birthday Gift
- ENDNOTES
For a father not to forgive is in truth far worse than for a son to need forgiveness. Such a father, as well as the son, will of course go from bad to worse unless he repents. The shifty, ungenerous spirit of compromise awoke in Raymount. He would be very good, very gentle, very kind to everyone else in the house. He would walk softly—he was not ready to walk uprightly—but he would postpone his forgiveness. He knew his feelings toward Corney were wearing out the heart of his wife—but he would not yield. There was little Mark, however. He would make more of him, know him better, and make the child know him better.
He went to see how his wife was. Finding that she was a trifle better, he found himself annoyed. In the selfishness of his misery, he looked upon her happiness at having her worthless son home as a lack of sympathy with himself. He did not allude to Cornelius, but said he was going for a walk, and went to find Mark—with a vague hope of consolation in the child who had clung to him so confidently in the night. He had forgotten it was not to him that the boy’s soul had clung, but to the father of both of them.
Mark was in the nursery, as the children’s room was still called. When Mark heard his father’s step, he bounded to meet him. When his sweet moonlit rather than sunshiny face appeared at the door, the gloom on his father’s yielded a little. The gleam of a momentary smile broke over it, and he said kindly:
“Come, Mark, I want you to go for a walk with me.”
He was not doing the right thing in taking him out, but he was not thinking of that just now. He ought to have known that the boy was still too weak for anything to be called a walk. Neither was the weather fit for his going out. But absorbed in his own trouble, the father did not think of his weakness, and Hester was not there to object. So away they went. Mark was delighted to be his father’s companion, never doubting all was right, and forgot his weakness as entirely as his father did.
With his heart in such a state, the father naturally had next to nothing to say to the boy, and they walked on in silence. But that did not affect Mark—he was satisfied to be with his father whether or not he spoke to him. From God he had learned not to dislike silence. Without knowing it, he was growing tired as they walked. When weariness at last became conscious, it came upon him all at once and poor Mark found he could scarcely put one leg in front of the other.