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Chapters (55)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to Weighed and Wanting
  6. 1. A Bad Weather Holiday
  7. 2. An Eventful Walk
  8. 3. Hester Alone
  9. 4. The Aquarium
  10. 5. Amy Amber
  11. 6. Cornelius and Vavasor
  12. 7. Hester and Amy
  13. 8. A Beginning in Hester
  14. 9. A Private Exhibition
  15. 10. Vavasor and Hester
  16. 11. The Concert Room
  17. 12. Sudden Change
  18. 13. Yrndale
  19. 14. Down the Hill
  20. 15. Out of the Frying Pan
  21. 16. Waiting a Purpose
  22. 17. Major H. G. Marvel
  23. 18. The Major and Vavasor
  24. 19. A Walk Along the River
  25. 20. An Unpleasant Interview
  26. 21. Corney’s Holiday
  27. 22. A Distinguished Guest
  28. 23. Courtship in Earnest
  29. 24. Calamity
  30. 25. In London
  31. 26. A Talk with the Major
  32. 27. A Scuffle
  33. 28. Gartley and the Major
  34. 29. Further Down
  35. 30. Differences
  36. 31. Deep Calleth Unto Deep
  37. 32. Deliverance
  38. 33. On the Way Up
  39. 34. The Attic Room
  40. 35. Amy and Corney
  41. 36. Miss Vavasor
  42. 37. Mr. Christopher
  43. 38. An Arrangement
  44. 39. Things at Yrndale
  45. 40. The Return
  46. 41. A Sad Beginning
  47. 42. Mother and Son
  48. 43. Miss Dasomma and Amy
  49. 44. The Sick Room
  50. 45. Vengeance Is Mine
  51. 46. Father and Daughter-in-law
  52. 47. The Message
  53. 48. A Family
  54. 49. A Birthday Gift
  55. ENDNOTES

Not recognizing his condition, his father was surprised and even annoyed, as well as startled: he was in no mood for such a visit. He felt also strangely afraid of the child, but could not have told why. Wretched about one son, he was dismayed at the nocturnal visit of the other. The cause was of course his wrong condition of mind. Lack of truth and its harmony in ourselves alone can make us miserable. There is a cure for everything when that is cured. No ill in our neighbours, if we be right in ourselves, will ever seem hopeless to us. But while we stand wrapped in our own selfishness, our neighbour may well seem incurable, for not only is there nothing in us to help their redemption, but there is that in ourselves, and cherished in us, which cannot be forgiven, but must be utterly destroyed.

There was an unnatural look, at the same time pitiful and lovely, about the boy as the father sat staring in gathering dread. He had nearly imagined him an angel of some doom.

Suddenly the child stretched out his hands to him and came close to his knee. Remembering how once before, when a tiny child, he had gone into a kind of fit when awakened suddenly, and anxious to avoid anything of the kind again, the father took the child softly in his arms, lifted him to his knees, and held him. An expression of supreme delight came over the boy’s face—a look of absolute contentment mingled with hope. He put his thin hands together as if saying his prayers, but lifted his look to that of his father. How could his earthly father know that in his dreams, the boy thought he was sitting in the lap of his heavenly Father? And now his lips began to move, and a murmur came from them, which grew into barely audible words. He was indeed praying to his father, but a father closer to him even than the one upon whose knees he sat.