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Chapters (55)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to Weighed and Wanting
  6. 1. A Bad Weather Holiday
  7. 2. An Eventful Walk
  8. 3. Hester Alone
  9. 4. The Aquarium
  10. 5. Amy Amber
  11. 6. Cornelius and Vavasor
  12. 7. Hester and Amy
  13. 8. A Beginning in Hester
  14. 9. A Private Exhibition
  15. 10. Vavasor and Hester
  16. 11. The Concert Room
  17. 12. Sudden Change
  18. 13. Yrndale
  19. 14. Down the Hill
  20. 15. Out of the Frying Pan
  21. 16. Waiting a Purpose
  22. 17. Major H. G. Marvel
  23. 18. The Major and Vavasor
  24. 19. A Walk Along the River
  25. 20. An Unpleasant Interview
  26. 21. Corney’s Holiday
  27. 22. A Distinguished Guest
  28. 23. Courtship in Earnest
  29. 24. Calamity
  30. 25. In London
  31. 26. A Talk with the Major
  32. 27. A Scuffle
  33. 28. Gartley and the Major
  34. 29. Further Down
  35. 30. Differences
  36. 31. Deep Calleth Unto Deep
  37. 32. Deliverance
  38. 33. On the Way Up
  39. 34. The Attic Room
  40. 35. Amy and Corney
  41. 36. Miss Vavasor
  42. 37. Mr. Christopher
  43. 38. An Arrangement
  44. 39. Things at Yrndale
  45. 40. The Return
  46. 41. A Sad Beginning
  47. 42. Mother and Son
  48. 43. Miss Dasomma and Amy
  49. 44. The Sick Room
  50. 45. Vengeance Is Mine
  51. 46. Father and Daughter-in-law
  52. 47. The Message
  53. 48. A Family
  54. 49. A Birthday Gift
  55. ENDNOTES

Under the influence of the lovely place, of the lovely weather, and of his admiration for Hester, notwithstanding this folly, as he considered it, the latent poetry of Vavasor’s nature awoke more rapidly, with the result that he was growing more and more in love with Hester. It was a pleasant experience to him. It began to grow plain to him that now his aunt could no longer look upon the idea of such an alliance in the same unfavourable light that she would naturally have before. It was very different to see Hester, now, in the midst of such grounds and in such a house, with all the old-fashioned comforts and luxuries of an ancient and prosperous family around her. If he could get his aunt to see her in the midst of these surroundings, then her beauty would have a chance to work its natural effect upon her.

By degrees, therefore, and without any transition noticed by Hester, emboldened mainly by the influences of the soft dusky twilight, he came to speak with more warmth and nearer approach.

“How strangely this loveliness seems to sink into the soul,” he said one evening. “For when one loves, how it exalts his whole being, yet in the presence of the woman he worships, how small and unworthy he feels.”

Hester sat silent. There are women like Hester who have had their minds constantly filled with true and earnest things and so have, over the years, come to woman’s full dignity without having even speculated on what it may be to be in love. Such women, therefore, are somewhat in the dark when it first begins to show itself within them. Having never invited its presence, finding it within them adds to their perplexity. Yet, though Vavasor’s experience was scarcely so valuable as her ignorance, he judged he might venture a little further. But with all his experience in the manufacture of compliments, he was now at a loss—he had no fine theories of love to talk from!

“If one might sit forever like this,” he said in almost a whisper, “—forever and ever, needing nothing, desiring nothing! lost in perfect bliss! If only God would make this moment eternal.”

He ceased and was silent.

Hester could not help being moved by the hint of the poetic thought that pervaded the utterance. But she was not altogether pleased. Never had she ever felt, even in a transient mood, like praying, “Let it last forever!”

“I do not quite understand you,” she said. “I can scarcely imagine the time should ever come when I would wish it to last forever.”

“Have you had so little happiness?” he asked sympathetically.