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Chapters (43)
  1. VINDOLANDA
  2. Adrian Goldsworthy
  3. About Vindolanda
  4. Contents
  5. Dedication
  6. Place Names
  7. PROLOGUE
  8. I
  9. II
  10. III
  11. IV
  12. V
  13. VI
  14. VII
  15. VIII
  16. IX
  17. X
  18. XI
  19. XII
  20. XIII
  21. XIV
  22. XV
  23. XVI
  24. XVII
  25. XVIII
  26. XIX
  27. XX
  28. XXI
  29. XXII
  30. XXIII
  31. XXIV
  32. XXV
  33. XXVI
  34. XXVII
  35. XXVIII
  36. XXIX
  37. XXX
  38. HISTORICAL NOTE
  39. ENDPAPERS
  40. GLOSSARY
  41. About Adrian Goldsworthy
  42. An Invitation from the Publisher
  43. Copyright

She began to sob, shoulders quivering. Ferox glanced quickly at the door, was relieved to see that Privatus had closed it behind him and he went and clasped her to him. Her head was on his shoulder and he felt her body shaking. One hand clasped her and the other smoothed her hair.

‘It was not your fault,’ he said. ‘Never your fault.’

Sulpicia Lepidina lifted her head and he kissed her on the cheek and soothed her. ‘It’s all right, it was not your fault,’ he repeated over and over again. Ferox still could not tell just what this clever aristocrat wanted, or what she really thought of him, but she was in his arms and at that moment all he wanted was to comfort her and make her smile again. ‘It was not your fault. I am to blame.’

She stared at him, puzzled and unconvinced.

‘I should have thought more clearly. They were looking for you, and all I wished to do was save you. Your husband as well, for that is my duty, but I could not bear the thought of them taking you, of them…’

‘My husband told me why you think they attacked me in my carriage,’ she said. ‘I assumed they just wanted my jewels – and perhaps my aged body.’ The tears had stopped, and she tried to laugh at her poor joke.

‘Then you know the horror of it all,’ Ferox said. ‘I thought only of stopping them, and when we arrived last night and found the praetorium raided all that mattered was to see you safe. It was my only thought.’

Her smile was a little warmer this time. ‘You had other thoughts once you found me.’

‘Yes, and while we…’ He trailed off for the guilt engulfed him. ‘I should have gone back to the fort. Checked that all was well. Instead I did not and they got away.’

‘How could you have known?’ She reached up and stroked his cheek.

‘It’s my job to know, and my job to think. I am tasked with keeping the peace in this region and I have failed. Do you not understand?’ He was surprised at how much this wounded him, striking at a pride he thought long gone.

She gave a slight shake of her head.

‘They thought they had you. It is the only explanation. Here is a big room, with a rich woman in it. They were sent to snatch the prefect’s wife and they found a lady in a big bed in his house. “Blood of king, blood of queen.” Just because you were safe did not mean that there was no more danger.’

She pulled free, as if to think more clearly. ‘There was no attack on my husband.’