I’m not supposed to know why Mr. Parker wanted me. Mom never said. But when I was thirteen, I asked Zia Teresa why Mr. Parker was allowed to sit next to me when he came to dinner.

“Because he is,” she told me.

“But no other boys are allowed to sit near me. If they even try, Kurt takes out his gun.”

Zia avoided my gaze. “You ask too many questions, bella. A habit you should try to break.”

I accepted her decision the way I accepted everything that happened to me but she knew if she didn’t tell me the truth, no one would. Two days later she pulled me into my ensuite and ran the shower and bath at the same time.

“What are you doing, Zia?”

“Shh!” She drew me close, her voice barely audible over the pounding water. “You want to know why Mr. Parker sits beside you?”

I nodded.

“Mr. Parker is a billionaire. I don’t know what he does, your stepmother says it’s computers or something. Anyway, he met your father at a party we hosted for the mayor of New York. Mr. Parker and your father became friends. He was having trouble making connections. Your father told him he was ‘new money’ and he would have to wait to gain the kind of reputation he wanted.”

“Was he angry?”

“Very. A month later he came back to the house and came back to marry into your family.”

My eyes went wide. I was only eight when daddy died, so I must have been a baby when they were having these talks. “Mr. Parker wanted to marry me?”

“He wanted to marry your sister. Margot was fifteen, there would have been less time to wait—no, don’t make noise, bella.”

Zia pressed a hand over my pleading mouth, suppressing my moan of horror. Her eyes were fixed on mine. “Be quiet and let me finish. Your father didn’t refuse Mr. Parker. But he didn’t encourage him either. But then he died, God rest his soul.” Zia whipped a quick sign of the cross.

“But Mr. Parker came back?” I pressed.

“He did, bella. He waited a year, then returned to negotiate with your stepmother. She offered Margot’s hand in marriage, but Mr. Parker said she didn’t have the right attitude for a wife. He knew Margot had just been suspended from school. I almost dropped the tray of roast potatoes I was carrying when he suggested you instead. I expected your stepmother to tell him to di andare a fanculo but she ordered me to bring you into the dining room. You probably don’t remember. You were very young.”

She looks at me hopefully and I shake my head. “I don’t remember.”

“Good.” Zia shudders. “I woke you up and carried you to the dining room. I was hoping you would wet yourself in front of him. That you would fall down or beg for a glass of milk. I even pinched you, trying to make you cry, but when I put you down in front of Mr. Parker, you answered all his questions like a little lady in your nightdress and I saw there was nothing I could do. He liked you. Your mother agreed to the marriage that night.”