Back Until My Last Breath

The problem was, my father was envious of me. I’d felt it all along, since I was a teenager, really. I was smarter than he was. I had more insight into the future. But instead of being proud of that fact and letting me pursue my ideals, he held the reins of the company tighter. At least, he tried to.

“This is your fault,” he charged, jabbing his finger in my direction.

I sunk my hands into the pockets of my suit pants because they were growing itchy at the sight of his fucking face. And I while the thought of punching my father didn’t necessarily repulse me, I would not do it in the office.

“How is this my fault?”

“Because your focus has been off. Ever since you married that—”

“Choose your words with extreme care,” I threatened.

My father stopped short, his face reddening, but he wasn’t deterred for too long. “Your wife. Ever since you ran off and got married like some commoner, things have been falling apart. Your head’s not in the game.”

It’d been six months since Deb and I had flown to Vegas and gotten married. Obviously my father still wasn’t over it. And I didn’t give a shit, either.

“Like some commoner? Do you hear yourself? Speaking as if we’re royalty or something.”

“We might as well be!” He slammed his fist into his open palm.

I rolled my eyes away from his, shaking my head. My father always had an enormous inferiority complex that masqueraded as his need to feel and tell everyone how superior he was to them.

“The leaks are happening because you won’t let me get to the bottom of it. It’s effecting our stock prices, and I just got a call this morning from a partner of ours who is growing concerned with everything he keeps hearing in the papers.”

“Did you tell him what I told you to tell him?”

The scowl I wore whenever I was in the presence of my father deepened. “No one is buying that bullshit ‘we’re looking into the leaks and doing everything we can to stop them’ line anymore. It’s been well over a year since the leaks began. Our investors are getting antsy. And you know what happens when investors get antsy.”

My father’s expression turned grim, and for a second it seemed like he was actually beginning to understand how deep this problem ran. But then he opened his mouth and said, “No, just stick to what I instructed you to tell everyone. This will eventually blow over.”

My shoulders sagged. I knew he didn’t have the fucking heart to make the right decision. To put his ego to the side and do what was right for the company. He needed to feel like he was in charge, when the truth of the matter was, it had been that way since his stroke.