I think back to the first morning at the diner.

“You already knew the morning we had breakfast together?”

He sighs and kisses my hair.

“Yes, I knew, and I wanted you even then. I don’t remember a time when I didn’t want you. Then along the way, things changed. I went from physically wanting you to needing you in my life. Something happened the day of the basketball game. I looked over and saw you sitting with my family. I knew right then that I wanted to keep you in my life forever. I kept thinking about how a future could be for us. With a house and kids. That’s why I tattooed the infinity circle on your ass with our names. I wanted a forever after with you. The tattoo was my way of showing you our future.”

I wipe my eyes. Damn! I can’t stop crying.

“The tattoo was the most wonderful thing I’ve ever been given.”

“Every day at work, all I could think about was hurrying back to you at night,” he says. “You were on my mind all the time. And then when I woke up that morning and you were gone, I went berserk. Completely out of my head. I couldn’t believe that you left me without saying goodbye.”

I curl my fingers tightly in his hair.

“I won’t leave you ever again,” I say. “I promise.”

“I’m glad to hear that because there’s something else I need to tell you. You’re going to be mad, but I don’t want any more secrets between us.”

I lean back to look up at him. He’s dead serious. I’m afraid to ask.

“What did you do?”

“Remember the night when you were a little tipsy and I tucked you into bed?”

I nod.

“I went looking through your cabinet for some aspirin and I saw your birth control pills.”

I don’t have a clue as to where this is going. I’m surprised he recognized what they were.

“So I punched out the pill for that day and threw it away,” he says in a rush of words. “I knew you might not miss it because of the tequila.”

“Why on earth would you do something crazy like that?”

He slides his hand down to rest on my stomach.

“I wasn’t thinking straight and...I wanted to get you pregnant. That’s why. You’re mad at me, aren’t you?”

I let out a surprised laugh. “I don’t even know what to say. If you knew I was an undercover ATF agent, why would you want to get me pregnant?”

He shrugs. “I love kids and I love you, so...”

“There has to be more to it than that.”

He reaches up and rubs my bottom lip with his thumb.