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Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Chapter 1
  3. Chapter 2
  4. Chapter 3
  5. Chapter 4
  6. Chapter 5
  7. Chapter 6
  8. Chapter 7
  9. Chapter 8
  10. Chapter 9
  11. Chapter 10
  12. Chapter 11
  13. Chapter 12
  14. Chapter 13
  15. Chapter 14
  16. Chapter 15
  17. Chapter 16
  18. Chapter 17
  19. Chapter 18
  20. Chapter 19
  21. Chapter 20
  22. Chapter 21
  23. Chapter 22
  24. Chapter 23
  25. Chapter 24
  26. Chapter 25
  27. Chapter 26
  28. Epilogue
  29. Acknowledgments
  30. About the Author
  31. Other Books by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
  32. Credits
  33. Copyright
  34. About the Publisher

“That thing with the fire alarm. Dan talks about what a quiet, serious kid you were. The good grades you got, all the awards you earned. You’ve spent your whole life trying to be perfect, haven’t you? Getting to the top of the honor roll, collecting good-conduct medals like other kids collect baseball cards. But then something happens. Out of nowhere the pressure gets to you, and you flip out. You pull a fire alarm, you give away your money, you jump in bed with a total stranger!” He shook his head. “I can’t believe I didn’t see it right away. I can’t believe nobody else sees it.”

“Sees what?”

“Who you really are.”

“Like you’d know.”

“All that perfection. It’s not in your nature.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I’m talking about the person you’d have been if you’d grown up in a normal family.”

She didn’t know what he was going to say, but she knew he believed it, and she suddenly wanted to run away.

He loomed in the door between her and escape. “Don’t you see? Your nature was to be the class clown, the girl who ditched school so she could smoke pot with her boyfriend and make out in the backseat of his car.”

“What?”

“The girl most likely to skip college and—and run off to Vegas to parade around in a G-string.”

“A G-string! That’s the most—”

“You’re not Bert Somerville’s daughter.” He let out a bark of rueful laughter. “Damn! You’re your mother’s daughter. And everybody’s been too blind to see it.”

She sagged down on the glider. This was silly. The mental meanderings of someone who’d spent too much time inside an MRI machine. He was trying to take everything she understood about who she was and turn it topsy-turvy. “You have no idea what you’re—”

Just like that, she ran out of air.

“What you’re—” She tried to say the rest, but she couldn’t because deep inside her something finally clicked into place.

The class clown … The girl most likely to ditch school …

“It’s not only that you’re afraid to take a risk because you’re competing with Phoebe. You’re afraid to take a risk because you’re still living with the illusion that you have to be perfect. And, Molly, trust me on this, being perfect isn’t in your nature.”

She needed to think, but she couldn’t do it under those watchful green eyes. “I’m not—I don’t even recognize this person you’re talking about.”

“Give it a few seconds, and I bet you will.”

It was too much. He was the bonehead, not her. “You’re just trying to distract me from pointing out everything that’s screwed up about you.”