Back This Heart of Mine
Chapters (34)
  1. Cover
  2. Chapter 1
  3. Chapter 2
  4. Chapter 3
  5. Chapter 4
  6. Chapter 5
  7. Chapter 6
  8. Chapter 7
  9. Chapter 8
  10. Chapter 9
  11. Chapter 10
  12. Chapter 11
  13. Chapter 12
  14. Chapter 13
  15. Chapter 14
  16. Chapter 15
  17. Chapter 16
  18. Chapter 17
  19. Chapter 18
  20. Chapter 19
  21. Chapter 20
  22. Chapter 21
  23. Chapter 22
  24. Chapter 23
  25. Chapter 24
  26. Chapter 25
  27. Chapter 26
  28. Epilogue
  29. Acknowledgments
  30. About the Author
  31. Other Books by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
  32. Credits
  33. Copyright
  34. About the Publisher

“It’s … a little sore. Very sore. Sort of this dull throb. Pretty painful, actually. I’ll have to take some Tylenol. But I’m sure it’ll be better by tomorrow.”

“No more swimming alone, okay? I’m serious. It was a stupid thing to do.” He propped his arm along the back of the cushions and gave her his I-mean-business-you-lowlife-rookie look. “And while we’re at it, don’t get too cozy with Lilly.”

“I don’t think you have to worry about that. In case you didn’t notice, she’s not too fond of me. Still, I think you need to hear her out.”

“That’s not going to happen. This is my life, Molly, and you don’t understand anything about it.”

“That’s not exactly true,” she said carefully. “I’m an orphan, too.”

He withdrew his arm. “You don’t get to call yourself an orphan if you’re over twenty-one.”

“The point is, my mother died when I was two, so I know something about feeling disconnected from your roots.”

“Our circumstances aren’t anything alike, so don’t try to make comparisons.” He gazed out into the woods. “I had two great parents. You didn’t have any.”

“I had Phoebe and Dan.”

“You were a teenager by then. Before that, you seem to have raised yourself.”

He was deliberately turning the conversation away from himself. She understood that, too, and she let him do it. “Me and Danielle Steel.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I was a fan, and I knew she had lots of kids. I used to pretend I was one of them.” She smiled at his amusement. “Now, some might find that pathetic, but I think it was pretty creative.”

“It’s definitely original.”

“Then I’d fantasize a mercifully painless death for Bert, at which point it would be magically revealed that he wasn’t my father at all. My real father was—”

“Let me guess. Bill Cosby.”

“I wasn’t that well adjusted. It was Bruce Springsteen. And no comments, okay?”

“Why should I comment when Freud already did the job?”

Molly wrinkled her nose at him. They sat in surprisingly companionable silence, broken only by Roo’s rhythmic snores. But Molly’d never been good at leaving well enough alone. “I still think you need to hear her out.”

“I can’t come up with a single reason why.”

“Because she won’t go away until you do. And because this will keep hovering over you for the rest of your life.”

He set down his glass. “Maybe the reason you’re so obsessed with analyzing my life is so you won’t get depressed thinking about your own neuroses.”

“Probably.”

He rose from the glider. “What do you say we go into town for some dinner?”