Chapters (46)
“Good idea,” she said, glancing at the menu. “I will, too.” When the server came by, Winnie order two Impossible burgers with chips. She eyed the salads wistfully but shut her menu with a snap that blew her hair up around her face. That was what parenting was all about—the sacrifices. She would eat fake red meat if it meant bonding with her son.
The chips cut into the roof of her mouth. Winnie only flinched when Samuel wasn’t looking. She hated feeling judged by a thirteen-year-old. He ate them like they were as soft as cheese; she watched in amazement as their sharp little ridges folded like paper behind his teeth. She felt victimized, her mouth tender. She reached for her veggie burger instead. Samuel hadn’t touched his; he was too busy grinding up those vicious little chips. She was trying hard not to say anything; instead, she bit into her own with enthusiasm.
“Try your burger. It’s delicious.”
“I don’t think anything pretending to be something else can be delicious.”
Winnie set her sandwich down, frowning. She blotted at the ketchup in the corners of her mouth. “What are you talking about? I thought you wanted a burger.”
He looked up at her, his chin tilted in a challenging way. He reminded Winnie of a bull in that moment.
“I wanted a real burger.”
“Samuel!” she said, exasperated. “Come on. Now you’re just being ridiculous. You’ve had a hundred veggie burgers.”
“And I’ve never liked them.”
She replaced her sandwich on the plate and stared at him. “So you’re just not going to eat them anymore?”
“I’m not,” he said. “I’m going to eat meat from now on because I’m not a vegetarian.”
The food she’d already ingested rolled in her belly. Winnie felt sick. She’d spent thirteen years raising this boy in what she thought was the best way, and now he was dismissing their way of life so casually, like it didn’t mean anything.
“We’ll talk about it later. If you’re not hungry that’s fine, but your dad—”
“I am hungry. I ate all the chips and I’m still hungry.”
She knew that if she told him to eat his veggie burger the argument would continue and spoil what was left of the evening.
Samuel was scrolling through his phone now, and she noticed that he was reading an article in the Seattle Times about the homeless.
“Do you want dessert?” she asked, pushing her burger aside. His only response was to raise a curious eyebrow like he was being pranked. She lifted a finger to call the server over, her eyes never leaving his face.
“Can we have one of every dessert on the menu, to share?” she said, glancing at Samuel. His face was incredulous. “So long as they don’t have meat in them.”
He cracked a small smile. Truce! Winnie thought.