Back The Voice in My Ear
Chapters (14)
  1. COVER
  2. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  3. DEDICATION
  4. THE VOICE IN MY EAR
  5. BRODERIE ANGLAISE
  6. PATIENCE
  7. THE MAN IN ROOM SIX
  8. WITH THEM INTERCEDE FOR US ALL
  9. WOULD YOU RATHER
  10. MUSTER’S PUPPETS PRESENTS …
  11. A SOURCE
  12. PLIGHT
  13. NO TWO WERE E’ER WED
  14. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

Not for a long time, she realises, once it begins, not for a very long time has she sat unoccupied like this – not working, not talking, not cooking or cleaning or reading, just sitting here. Occasionally people enter the room and circle around her, but she can’t really see them; she can track their voices, but only if they are talking loudly enough, and even then, what they say is in Dutch. It isn’t what she’d imagined – she’d imagined lying in the main exhibition hall, in daylight, laughing with other visitors who stopped to ask her what on earth she was doing. But maybe this is better. More eerie; more artistic.

She cannot see any part of the chair that supports her, or anything of the surrounding room except the doorway’s square of light. It’s like she’s floating in the air. Her posture, it comes to her, is like the posture of someone being abducted by aliens in an old science fiction film, the body pulled upwards by the navel in a beam of light. But it isn’t a beam of light that keeps her in position. It isn’t the restraints, either. The chair is almost two centuries old, and she is afraid to damage it, so she lies very still. She doesn’t even try to pull against the straps, to see how strong they are; she just stirs her body very slightly, now and then, to feel their pressure in place.

Shufflings and murmurings as a larger group enters the room. There’s something expectant in the hush, and Claire is not surprised when a face rises above her, the silhouette of a face – an older woman’s, her comb of pale hair backlit by the lights, and with something on her head, some strange contraption, a kind of silver disc.

‘Miss Jansen,’ the woman says, in an unidentifiable accent. ‘What state are we in today?’

She is wearing a white jacket or coat, and carrying a clipboard that has the museum’s logo on the back. Another volunteer, then. Or maybe an actor. Are there actors in the Living Museum?

‘Afternoon rounds, Miss Jansen. Wakey-wakey. Is there anything you’d like to discuss?’

‘I don’t know,’ Claire says, cautiously. The people in the room are quiet, presumably watching. ‘What sort of thing?’

‘Well. Yesterday you were telling me about your mother. Isn’t that right?’

‘My mother?’

‘Yes.’

‘I don’t think I was.’

Someone makes a small coughing sound that might have been a nervous laugh.

‘But it’s here in my notes. It’s right here. Your mother was a difficult woman, yes? She was very hard on you, yes? You told me about the yellow irises in the garden. How she cut them all down.’

‘I didn’t say that.’