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Contents ( 13)
  1. THE WATCH.
  2. THE SACRIFICE.
  3. THE CONFESSION.
  4. SERVICE NO. I.
  5. SERVICE NO. II.
  6. I.
  7. II.
  8. III.
  9. IV.
  10. V.
  11. VI.
  12. VII.
  13. CHAPTER IV

“You are sure you have put it up?” she said, with a look of blank terror at the window. “It will not fall open in the night, the shutter — you are sure?”

He comforted her. Yes, it was tightly fastened.

“Even if it is shut,” she said in a whisper, “you cannot keep it out! You feel it coming in at four o’clock, creeping, creeping, up, up; deadly cold!” She shuddered.

He thought she was wandering, and laid her little trembling body down among the blankets.

“I dreamed just now that it was not put up,” she said, looking into his eyes; “and it crept right in and I was alone with it.”

“What do you fear?” he asked tenderly.

“The Gray Dawn,” she said, glancing round at the window. “I was never afraid of anything, never when I was a little child, but I have always been afraid of that. You will not let it come in to me?”

“No, no; I will stay with you,” he continued.

But she was growing calmer, “No; you must go to bed, I only awoke with a start; you must be tired. I am childish, that is all;” but she shivered again.

He sat down beside her. After some time she said, “Will you not rub my feet?”

He knelt down at the foot of the bed and took the tiny foot in his hand; it was swollen and unsightly now, but as he touched it he bent down and covered it with kisses.

“It makes it better when you kiss it; thank you. What makes you all love me so?” Then dreamily she muttered to herself: “Not utterly bad, not quite bad — what makes them all love me so?”

Kneeling there, rubbing softly, with his cheek pressed against the little foot, Gregory dropped to sleep at last. How long he knelt there he could not tell; but when he started up awake she was not looking at him. The eyes were fixed on the far corner, gazing wide and intent, with an unearthly light.

He looked round fearfully. What did she see there? God’s angels come to call her? Something fearful? He saw only the purple curtain with the shadows that fell from it. Softly he whispered, asking what she saw there.

And she said, in a voice strangely unlike her own, “I see the vision of a poor weak soul striving after good. It was not cut short; and, in the end, it learnt, through tears and much pain, that holiness is an infinite compassion for others; that greatness is to take the common things of life and walk truly among them; that” — she moved her white hand and laid it on her forehead — “happiness is a great love and much serving. It was not cut short; and it loved what it had learnt — it loved — and — — ”

Was that all she saw in the corner?

Gregory told the landlady the next morning that she had been wandering all night. Yet, when he came in to give her her breakfast, she was sitting up against the pillow, looking as he had not seen her look before.