Back The Snow Song
Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Sally Gardner
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Sally Gardner, writing as Wray Delaney
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Epigraph
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Acknowledgements
  43. About the Publisher

But Edith couldn’t speak. She’d woken that morning, her mouth a hollow cave, empty of sound. She watched her father, his arms flailing, and realised for the first time that this silence was a room she could live in. No one speaks to a closed door. There are two parts to a conversation.

‘Do you hear me?’

No, she thought. Because I don’t want to. You can argue with yourself. Perhaps that’s who you’ve been arguing with all your life. She didn’t try to stop him when he poured another glass, his face contorted, his breath stale as he came close to her. Had she ever loved him, she wondered. She’d loved her grandmother.

Her grandmother had told her, ‘If you don’t like the story you are telling yourself, make up a different one and change the ending.’

Edith had tried to change the ending to her father’s story. Now she didn’t care. The only way to endure the rest of her life without Demetrius was to tell herself stories. Stories would be the furnishings of her silent room.

Her father’s jaws moved up and down; he had an ugly set of teeth. She was surprised at how easy it was to let go of another person’s words. They became a jumble of sound, a mass of cockroaches, click-clicking, all marching in the same direction.

‘Your feet have always dangled above the earth,’ he yelled. ‘You’ve been like that since the day you were born. You will marry the butcher.’

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Demetrius, my love, when the ground has become too hard, when winter has crept into this house, when the darkness begins to fill the cracks with the ghost of a summer past, you will be in my heart, a snow song away. Never leave me.

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The cabinet maker didn’t know what to make of this silent, white-haired daughter. She seemed not to care what he said to her, never showed any expression.

His mind fragmented by drink, he feared that Demetrius had become one of the bloodless. Hadn’t he sucked Edith’s voice from her? It would explain the paleness of her skin, her white hair. In fear of an attack, the cabinet maker started to wear his shirt inside out.