She remembered him sneering at her. ‘Another excellent idea from your superior mind, dear. I would put that on a par with your one about opening a gallery on Circe. Do you think for one second that ECS has stopped searching for us? Do you think for one second we can breeze easily through the Polity avoiding both capture and getting mind-wiped?’
‘But Jay, darling—’
‘I used to enjoy your little whims and sudden enthusiasms. I think I ceased to enjoy them the moment you ceased to be you. Why did you do it? Why the hell did you do it?’
‘Jay, darling.’
‘Don’t touch me. You disgust me.’
There was a taste like iron in her mouth that she tried fruitlessly to spit away. That she had no longer possessed the body he loved, she understood. But, in the end, it had been because she no longer had the same mind. She gave a dry laugh and squeezed tears from her eyes, but, deep inside she knew she was going insane. Because she’d lived too long in a body not her own, she’d seen and caused too much horror, she’d lived too long amongst aliens, and because - in the end - she’d lived too long.
* * * *
Janer stepped over the wreckage of the door and into the cabin. He reached down and righted the chair to which they had tied Keech, then carried it to the desk positioned below the brass-rimmed portal. He sat down and studied the two sealed flasks contained in a rack clamped to the edge of the desk. Each flask contained a number of red rhomboidal crystals resting under a clear fluid. He removed a bung from one of these and sniffed at the pungency released. It reminded him somewhat of old coffee, perhaps with a background of something putrefying.
‘Just one crystal?’ he said.
‘Yes,’ said the mind, and Janer wondered if he was imagining a touch of avidity in its voice.
‘I suppose that if I don’t get it for you, you’ll get hold of it some other way.’
‘Yes,’ said the mind.
‘I’m not going to do this,’ said Janer, reinserting the bung and tapping it home with his forefinger.
‘Why not?’
‘Because I’ve worked out what you’re up to. “Get me a sample of that unusual substance in Ambel’s cabin.” Do you think I’m entirely stupid?’
‘I do not.’
Janer sat back in his chair. ‘Why do you want to go this route?’ he asked.
‘Power,’ explained the mind. ‘It was tried before using curare. That failed, and the hornets in question were wiped out. The mind concerned still hasn’t regained its consciousness. But it is the way.’
‘The same could happen again,’ said Janer.
‘Not here,’ said the mind. ‘This is a primitive society. It will work.’