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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. By the Same Author
  3. Dedication Page
  4. CHAPTER 1
  5. CHAPTER 2
  6. CHAPTER 3
  7. CHAPTER 4
  8. CHAPTER 5
  9. CHAPTER 6
  10. CHAPTER 7
  11. CHAPTER 8
  12. CHAPTER 9
  13. CHAPTER 10
  14. CHAPTER 11
  15. CHAPTER 12
  16. CHAPTER 13
  17. CHAPTER 14
  18. CHAPTER 15
  19. CHAPTER 16
  20. CHAPTER 17
  21. CHAPTER 18
  22. CHAPTER 19
  23. CHAPTER 20
  24. CHAPTER 21
  25. CHAPTER 22
  26. CHAPTER 23
  27. CHAPTER 24
  28. CHAPTER 25
  29. CHAPTER 26
  30. CHAPTER 27
  31. CHAPTER 28
  32. CHAPTER 29
  33. CHAPTER 30
  34. CHAPTER 31
  35. CHAPTER 32
  36. CHAPTER 33
  37. CHAPTER 34
  38. CHAPTER 35
  39. CHAPTER 36
  40. CHAPTER 37
  41. CHAPTER 38
  42. CHAPTER 39
  43. Acknowledgements

She hears the words, ‘terrible accident’, and ‘loss of mother’, then ‘dredged up old associations’. Simon is clearly explaining how Cedric came to be in her care, rather than his own.

She rests her elbows on the chipped table. Misery and guilt seem to be ingrained within the wood. She wonders how many people have sat here in utter despair. One of her predecessors has carved shapes with their fingernails; another has left a stain that looks like blood. She shudders, imagining the miscreants and blackguards who must have occupied this very same chair.

Her stomach growls. She cannot remember when she last ate. It is hard to focus on anything except Cedric. What is she going to tell Mamma? Anything but the truth. She shakes her head, unable to believe she has been such a colossal fool.

Each time she has an item or person of value, she loses it.

The door creaks, making her jump. Simon enters, alone.

‘What is it, what did he say?’

Simon spreads his hands in that conciliating gesture of his. ‘The police will do everything within their power. They have instructed me to take you home, in case the boy returns.’

Go home? That would feel as bad as giving up, resigning Cedric to his fate. ‘But I have not told them—’

‘I knew how upsetting it would be to explain the … circumstances surrounding Cedric. Consider the matter in hand. The police shall deal directly with me from now on.’

Her mouth falls open. She has never felt more impotent, more inconsequential. Does Simon really expect her to sit at home and do nothing? It was his reluctance to act that caused this mess in the first place! And he cannot have given Sergeant Redmayne the full story, because he does not know it himself. There is so much she has not told him.

Her shaking fingers fly to her reticule. ‘But the proof! The notes. Surely they need this? It is evidence!’

Simon examines the heap of paper she has tipped out upon the table. His face turns white. ‘Where – where did you find these?’

‘I told you before: in Cedric’s bed, in his pocket, under the door. I told you the murderer was writing me notes.’

He is holding himself remarkably stiff and still. His eyes do not leave the pieces of paper; it is as though they have turned him to stone. Agnes has a wild urge to slap him, spit at him, do something to shake him out of this lethargy. Any other man would be frantic with worry for his missing son, even if he is only a son by law.

‘Do you recognise the writing, Simon? It is familiar to me, although I cannot place it … We both agreed it could not be Montague. He would not do such a thing.’