Contents ( 29)
- The Queen’s Fool
- SUMMER 1548
- WINTER 1552–53
- SPRING 1553
- SUMMER 1553
- AUTUMN 1553
- WINTER 1553
- WINTER 1554
- SPRING 1554
- SUMMER 1554
- AUTUMN 1554
- WINTER 1554–55
- SPRING 1555
- SPRING–SUMMER 1555
- AUTUMN 1555
- WINTER 1555
- SPRING 1556
- SUMMER 1556
- AUTUMN 1556
- WINTER 1556–57
- SPRING 1557
- SUMMER 1557
- WINTER 1557–58
- SPRING 1558
- SUMMER 1558
- AUTUMN 1558
- WINTER 1558
- AUTHOR’S NOTE
- BIBLIOGRAPHY
It was not the Sight that helped me through all of this, but the sharp intuition of a girl on the edge of womanhood. ‘You thought I would rush to you,’ I crowed. ‘You thought you would rescue me, that I would be a fearful girl longing to cling to a man, ready to fling myself at you!’
The sudden darkening of his flush and the jerk of his head told me that I had hit the mark.
‘Well, learn this, young apprentice physician, I have seen sights and travelled in countries that you cannot imagine. I have been afraid and I have been in danger, and I have never for one moment thought that I would throw myself at a man for his help.’
‘You are not . . .’ He was lost for words, choking on a young man’s indignation. ‘You are not . . . maidenly.’
‘I thank God for it.’
‘You are not . . . a biddable girl.’
‘I thank my mother for that.’
‘You are not . . .’ His temper was getting the better of him. ‘You would not be my first choice!’
That silenced me, and we looked at each other in some sort of shock at the distance we had come in so little a time.
‘Do you want another girl?’ I asked, a little shaken.
‘I don’t know another girl,’ he said sulkily. ‘But I don’t want a girl who doesn’t want me.’
‘It’s not you I dislike,’ I volunteered. ‘It’s marriage itself. I would not choose marriage at all. What is it but the servitude of women hoping for safety, to men who cannot even keep them safe?’
My father glanced over curiously and saw the two of us, face to face, aghast in silence. Daniel turned away from me and took two paces to one side, I leaned against the cold stone of the doorpost and wondered if he would stride off into the night and that would be the last I would see of him. I wondered how displeased my father would be with me if I lost a good offer through my impertinence, and if we would be able to stay in England at all if Daniel and his family considered themselves insulted by us newcomers. We might be family and entitled to the help of our kin, but the hidden Jews of England were a tight little world and if they decided to exclude us, we would have nowhere to go but on our travels again.
Daniel mastered himself, and came back to me.
‘You do wrong to taunt me, Hannah Green,’ he said, his voice trembling with his intensity. ‘Whatever else, we are promised to one another. You hold my life in your hands and I hold yours in mine. We should not disagree. This is a dangerous world for us. We should cleave together for our own safety.’
‘There is no safety,’ I said coldly. ‘You have lived too long in this quiet country if you think there is ever any safety for such as us.’