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Contents (42)
  1. Dedication
  2. Contents
  3. Part One
  4. The Truth
  5. 1. May
  6. 2. May
  7. 3. June
  8. Part Two
  9. Summer Holidays
  10. 4. July
  11. 5. August
  12. 6. October
  13. Part Three
  14. Watching the Grown-Ups
  15. 7. October
  16. The Night After the Party
  17. 8. November
  18. Three Weeks After Ash’s Death
  19. 9. November
  20. Part Four
  21. Damage
  22. 10. November
  23. 11. November
  24. 12. November
  25. Part Five
  26. Disguises
  27. 13. November
  28. 14. November
  29. 15. March
  30. Part Six
  31. Friendship
  32. 16. April
  33. 17. April
  34. 18. April—Same Day
  35. 19. May
  36. 20. December
  37. Epilogue
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. About the Author
  40. Also by Jane Shemilt
  41. Copyright
  42. About the Publisher

The children follow Grace outside. The patch of grass by the parking lot glistens with discarded bottles; her shirt feels sticky already. The usual four adolescents are bunched in a group by the dumpsters, thin boys waiting for drugs. A new one has joined them today, older, taller. The green soles of his sneakers flash as he twists, walks, turns, and starts again; head down and hooded, seventeen at a guess, scrawny, already scarred. He flicks a cigarette butt her way and she feels a faint crackle of fear. It’s the way he looks at her, half grinning as though biding his time. Grace’s father had been a veteran of the Second Chimurenga in Zimbabwe. He had fought with ZANLA against the ruling whites and witnessed the atrocities his people suffered; she grew up on his stories. It took her a while to convince her family that Martin was different, that she would be safe with him. She didn’t tell them about the UKIP graffiti on the walls of the flats when they moved in; she had been pregnant with Blake at the time and they needed a home, it was all they could afford. She watches her kids getting into the car and gets in herself, heart thumping. She pulls out and turns on the radio for the children. Her story starts up again, running below the music like a bright river.

Poppy lies on her bed, watching the dust jumping in the light. The minutes drag already. There is literally nothing to do. She closes her eyes. Ash is crying; Sorrel is complaining in a whiny voice because Poppy won’t let her onto her bed. The smell of hot bread hanging in the house makes her feel like vomiting. She wants to tell her mother to stop with the fucking baking. She wants to walk out of the room and down the stairs and out to another house, a normal family where the kids are allowed screen time and junk food and normal bread and they don’t have to look after their brother or sister or play games in the garden, like kids in a fucking fairy tale. Everyone at school thinks she’s an idiot. Izzy—the girl coming this morning—will think she’s stupid when they start their lessons together. She’ll arrive any minute and it’ll be embarrassing. Her mother’s laugh is embarrassing, like she’s escaped from some mental hospital. She’s not even wearing a bra today, Izzy will think it’s gross. Poppy rolls over onto her stomach, squashing the croissant. She covers her ears to block out Ash and her whiny little sister. She wishes she had some of those earphones that cancel out noise. She’d cancel out her whole family if she could.

Blake stares out the car window. When they pass the park, some of his friends are playing soccer already. He doesn’t want to go to special lessons for stupid people; if he can’t do the work he’ll look even more stupid. He puts his legs up on the back seat to the halfway mark. Charley has her legs up too, but she’s over the mark so he kicks her and she laughs. He kicks harder and she goes on laughing; that’s exactly what the whole day will be like.