Athelstan’s premonitions about the occasion proved correct. The meeting was not a happy one. Foremost among his parishioners were Watkin the dung-collector and his wife, a woman built like a battering ram, hard-faced, with iron grey hair hanging down to her shoulders. Cecily the courtesan made constant barbed remarks, hinting she knew more about Watkin than his wife did. Ranulf the ratcatcher, Simon the tiler, and a host of others thronged the nave, sitting facing each other on the church’s two and only benches with Athelstan sitting between them on the sanctuary chair.

The occasion was marred by bickering. Nothing was resolved and Athelstan felt he had failed to take a decisive role. The meeting ended with all his parishioners glaring up at him accusingly. He apologised, said he felt tired, and promised they would meet again when some decisions could be made. They all trooped out, mumbling and muttering, except Benedicta. She remained sitting on the end of one bench, her cloak wrapped about her.

Athelstan went to close the door behind his parishioners. When he returned he thought Benedicta was crying, her shoulders were shaking so. But when she looked up, he realised she was laughing, the tears streaming down her face.

‘You find our parish meetings amusing, Benedicta?’

‘Yes.’ He noticed how low and cultured her voice was.

‘Yes, Father, I do. I mean —’ She spread her hands and giggled again.

Athelstan just glared at her but still she could not control her mirth. Her shoulders shook with laughter, her alabaster cheeks flushed with warmth. Athelstan could not prevent his smile.

‘I mean,’ she said, ‘Cecily the courtesan’s ambition to act the role of the Virgin Mary! And the face of Watkin’s wife!’ She laughed so infectiously that Athelstan joined in and, for the first time since he had arrived at St Erconwald’s, the nave of his church rang with laughter. At last Benedicta composed herself.

‘Not seemly,’ she observed, her eyes dancing with merriment, ‘for a widow and her parish priest to be laughing so loudly in church at the expense of his parishioners! But I must say, never in my short life have I witnessed anything so funny. You must regard us as a cross to bear.’

‘No,’ Athelstan replied and sat down beside her. ‘No cross.’

‘Then what is it, Father? Why are you so sad?’

Athelstan stared across at the blue, red and gold painting now being formed on the wall. What is my cross? he thought. A large burden, a veritable mortal sin of the flesh, with balding head, shrewd brown eyes, and a face as red as a bloody rag. Sir John Cranston, lord of the stomach, master of the sturdy legs and an arse so huge that Athelstan secretly called it ‘Horsecrusher’. But how could he explain Cranston to Benedicta?

‘No crosses, Benedicta. Nothing, perhaps, except loneliness.’