Back The Name of the Star
Chapters (48)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. Dedication
  4. THE RETURN
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. PERSISTENT ENERGY
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. THE STAR THAT KILLS
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Chapter 17
  24. Chapter 18
  25. Chapter 19
  26. Chapter 20
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. INNER VILENESS
  32. Chapter 25
  33. Chapter 26
  34. Chapter 27
  35. Chapter 28
  36. Chapter 29
  37. Chapter 30
  38. Chapter 31
  39. Chapter 32
  40. WHITE’S ROW, EAST LONDON NOVEMBER 9 2:45 A.M.
  41. TERMINUS TERIMNUS
  42. Chapter 33
  43. Chapter 34
  44. Chapter 35
  45. Chapter 36
  46. Chapter 37
  47. Chapter 38
  48. Acknowledgements

“You crossed the square at two in the morning?”

“Yes,” I said, shrinking in my chair.

Detective Young pulled her chair in a little closer, and her expression grew a bit more serious. She nodded for me to go on.

“We had just gotten to the back window of Hawthorne and were climbing in, and this guy walked around the corner of the building. And he asked if we were supposed to be doing that—climbing back in the window. And I said it was okay, because we went there. He was creepy.”

“Creepy how?”

The more I thought about it, the less I could explain why the guy was so creepy, aside from the fact that he was hanging around the school. There was just something about him that made my brain twitch and gave me the very strong feeling that he shouldn’t be there. The guy was just wrong in every way . . . but that is not an explanation.

There’s something witnesses do that my parents had explained to me many times. Once witnesses find out that what they’ve seen might be important—that it might have something to do with a crime—their brains get out the crayons and start coloring things in, making things seem moody and suspicious and full of meaning when it’s entirely possible that nothing was going on. The noise in the night that you thought was a car backfiring is now clearly a gunshot. That guy you saw at the store at two in the morning buying lots of trash bags? At the time, you thought little of him. But now that he’s on trial for killing someone and chopping up the body in the tub, you remember that he was nervous and sweaty and shifty and maybe even splattered with blood. And you won’t be lying, either. The mind does this. It constantly rewrites our memories to accommodate new facts. This is why police and lawyers break people down to make sure witnesses report the facts and nothing but the facts.

In short, I felt I should have been better at being questioned by the police. I’d practically been trained for this. What I’d seen was a guy walking past our window. He could have been completely innocent. But still, all I had was “creepy.” If pushed, I could add “icky.” Out of place. Incorrect.

“Just . . . creepy.”

“Then what happened?” she asked.

“He said something about how we shouldn’t be out, and then Jazza came to the window and helped me inside.”

“And what happened to the man?”

“He walked away.”

“What did he look like?” she asked.

“He was, I don’t know . . .”

What did people look like? Suddenly I didn’t know how to describe anything.

“He was in a suit. A gray suit. And it was kind of weird . . .”

“In what way?”

“It just looked . . . weird. Old—”

“He was an old man?”