Chapters (24)
- Table of Contents
- The Menagerie
- Dedication
- Acknowledgments
- Chapter 1: The Menagerie
- Chapter 2: Malcolm
- Chapter 3: Wants and Needs
- Chapter 4: Two Pieces of a Puzzle
- Chapter 5: The Loving Dom
- Chapter 6: Mistakes and Promises
- Chapter 7: Tongue Tied
- Chapter 8: The Shape of You
- Chapter 9: Red and Green
- Chapter 10: Release
- Chapter 11: Choke Me
- Epilogue
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[RC] What’s your favorite position?
[MS] prison guard
His response is immediate. He knows Mal works from home, but it’s still a pleasant surprise that he’s paying him the attention he should be paying to Excel spreadsheets.
[RC] ???
[RC] Never heard of that
[MS] you did it last week
[MS] prison-guard-07.gif
The gif of straight-up porn catches Rowan off guard, though it really shouldn’t given who he’s talking to. But now that he sees it, Rowan does remember it well. Mal on his knees with Rowan fucking into him from behind, holding his arms tight to his lower back as if he were in handcuffs. It was hot as shit, and Mal definitely seemed to enjoy it.
[RC] Ah, gotcha
[MS] or on my knees with my face pressed into the bed
[MS] like riding a lot too
[MS] my actual favorite though is missionary while i’m gettin choked
[RC] Too bad we can’t do your actual favorite
Rowan’s not expecting a reply to that.
[MS] yeah
[MS] got big hands man
[RC] Should have you ride me again though. Haven’t done that since the gb
[MS] yeah
[MS] next saturday?
[RC] Definitely
Rowan thinks the conversation is over, but Mal follows up with a less-than-common question of his own.
[MS] what’s yours
[RC] Assume you mean for topping? Guess it depends
[MS] yeah. depends on what
[RC] If I’m fucking someone I care about or not
[MS] why does that matter
[MS] fucking is fucking
[RC] Thanks Shakespeare
[RC] It does matter. To me at least
[MS] sap
[MS] so what you only fuck people in missionary if you love them
Well. No, but it does feel more special that way. But he’s not gonna tell Mal that. They kinda-sorta fucked that way during the gangbang, but that was about as far from romantic as you can get.
[RC] Not what I meant
[RC] I like missionary or spooning the best if there’s feelings involved
[RC] And just doggy if it’s a casual thing
[MS] you got a different favorite for bottoming
[RC] I don’t really do it enough to have a favorite
[RC] Probably riding though so I can still be in control
Rowan doesn’t tell him that it’s been over a year since he last bottomed, and even longer since he really enjoyed it.
EACH TIME his phone vibrates or lights up with a message from Mal, it gets Rowan’s heart racing. Standing in line at the grocery store, winding down from a run, folding laundry… normal, everyday things are made all the more enjoyable when he sees Mal’s name on the screen. Every conversation throughout the week is a tiny sip of Mal that Rowan drinks in like a man lost in the desert—tiding him over long enough to make it to the oasis of Saturday night but never enough to fully quench his thirst.
[RC] You ever been fisted before?
[MS] what the fuck
[MS] why
[RC] Sorry, just read something about it and was curious