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This was like living again, felt Mrs Standish.
It’s quite like old times, Aubrey, she said aloud.
Quickly she banished her own anachronism in raising her champagne. She wanted to feel that pricking in the nose. The smoke, the smoke from Aubrey’s cigar, hung between them, softening a face. She was soft, soft, her body. It was either champagne or retrospect. Even if Aubrey, wry-faced, tried to squeeze a drop of shame out of her hilarity.
Good, Catherine, Aubrey said. Thanks for the discovery.
She had always been enthusiastic. He remembered the little sallies of the hand, of furs, in the intimate smell of hansoms. Now he looked at her indulgently, because indulgence to Aubrey Silk was an easy, almost the only emotion. His feet lay cold inside his pumps. His hands, through habit, knew the texture of the things he had about him. He looked down at his blue veins. Time had mapped his hands with a fatal geographic scheme.
Yes, Aubrey, she said. We’re inclined to withdraw. Too soon. I refuse to be forced, by my children, by my friends, against my own conviction. Other people make such plans for one’s development. I detest making plans.
Which was true. Except an inspiration on the telephone. Aubrey, you must take me one night, quietly, you must take me to supper at the Vendôme. And this was hardly a plan, a glance forward into a region where possibility crystallized. Because, she said, it will be like old times, Aubrey. Aware of her own shortcomings, she had brought her voice closer on the telephone. She could make it close and warm. Her lovers had resented its timbre, but afterwards. Not the voice on the telephone. She brought this right forward, tried to chafe a second voice to the pitch of her own enthusiasm.
Catherine Standish had charm. It was the way she leant forward. Aubrey Silk could feel it, theoretically, all the little moves too well known, then forgotten. The other side of his dead skin he knew what was going on. As it was, there was very little to say. When you had ceased to participate.
Have some more champagne, Aubrey said.
The small duties still remained.
Aubrey, she said, you’re a dear.
She put her hand over the congestion of blue veins. She touched a coldness that frightened, it frightened almost as much as many present emotions in herself that she had tried to hide, just as she covered up the basic skin, making an illusion at her dressing-table which could ease her mind. Then Aubrey’s hand. It settled down coldly over the warmth she had induced by drinking so many glasses of champagne.
The music shot out. It made a great funnel of sound. It reproduced the funnel of the saxophone.
Presumably, hot music, said a tentative Mrs Standish. It has a quality that excites, but is it something that one understands?
She knew that her voice was stilted, precious, her neck rigid that would turn, turned, she would see if, just a glance, the first since reassuring on arrival, she would pick out a head to which she had given its importance, and her glance resting on a saxophone.