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Chapters (47)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Map
  5. AUTUMN I
  6. chapter one RISK ASSESSMENT
  7. chapter two UPPER SIXTH INVOCATION
  8. chapter three OLD FAITHFUL
  9. chapter four SITE MANAGEMENT
  10. chapter five THE ARCHIVES
  11. chapter six ANEETA
  12. chapter seven THREE-STEP PLAN
  13. chapter eight INCURSION
  14. chapter nine CHARLIE
  15. chapter ten PHOENIX
  16. chapter eleven REFLECTION AND TARGET-SETTING
  17. OCTOBER HALF TERM
  18. chapter twelve REPUTATIONAL DAMAGE
  19. chapter thirteen RED LION
  20. AUTUMN II
  21. chapter fourteen NOVEMBER
  22. chapter fifteen VAPE
  23. chapter sixteen THE LAKE
  24. chapter seventeen THE HUNT
  25. chapter eighteen ROMANCE
  26. chapter nineteen THE END OF TERM
  27. CHRISTMAS
  28. chapter twenty LONDON
  29. chapter twenty-one IMPULSE
  30. chapter twenty-two A SLIGHTLY REGRETTABLE DECISION
  31. SPRING I
  32. chapter twenty-three BEFORE IT GOES BANG
  33. chapter twenty-four MOCKS
  34. chapter twenty-five CAREERS
  35. chapter twenty-six GUIDANCE
  36. chapter twenty-seven SNOWDROPS
  37. FEBRUARY HALF TERM
  38. SPRING II
  39. EASTER
  40. SUMMER I
  41. chapter twenty-eight PHOENIX INDWELLING
  42. chapter twenty-nine OATHBOUND
  43. chapter thirty CONTINUING PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT
  44. acknowledgments
  45. Also by Emily Tesh
  46. about the author
  47. Newsletter Sign-up

They look at you. A speaker for the group is silently elected: Aneeta, sensible and academic, unblemished good behaviour for seven years straight, ideal teacher-wrangler. “I hope it’s okay if we use the classroom,” she says. “We’ll clean the board afterwards.”

Technically they should be in the library or the sixth form common room, but school is surprisingly low on suitable spaces for small study groups, and you know the value of such work. Aneeta and Nikki urge each other on; both of them show care and support for Mathias; Will is pricked to competitive industriousness when Nikki is there. You are satisfied by these calculations, this knowledge. You gesture approval. “Feel free. I trust you lot.”

Will sits on a desk, long legs in black jeans swinging, holding his pen unmoving against a propped-up notepad. Nikki’s eyes are deep and dark and watchful. Mathias hunches in his chair. Even now, eighteen years old, three weeks before the A-level examinations begin, he has a fearful child’s reaction to unexpected adult attention. You smile on them benevolently. Benevolence is another thing you have learned, a function of your new selfhood. You are an enormously benevolent teacher.

“Good luck,” you say. “Work hard! Do let me know if you need help with anything.”

Aneeta breathes out hard when you’re gone. You could know this, if you chose to, but your attention has moved on. Children are only children. They are within your territory but not part of it; you abide by this principle as a concession to your host. She has no power to restrain you, but she becomes very irritating if you act in a manner inconsistent with the statutory guidance annually published by the government under the title of Keeping Children Safe in Education.

Will says, “So—”

“Shh,” hisses Nikki, eyes on Aneeta, who is positioned between the board and the doorway, neatly placed to watch for movement in the corridor.

After a moment, Aneeta nods. At the same time, Mathias straightens up from his miserable crouch over the desk. His acne is finally starting to clear up. He’s been trying a different cleanser.

“So,” says Will again. “Are we really sure we aren’t imagining it?”

“We’re not imagining it,” says Mathias, with the absolute certainty of a boy whose dreams have been haunted by the whispers of eager, encroaching demons since he was three years old. Some mortals lie closer to the edge of worlds than others. Some holes in the heart cry out to be filled.

“Yeah, no,” says Nikki, who—like you—wears a mask every day. Who, like you, was born for power. She puts her hand on Mathias’s arm briefly. You would have a hard time making sense of this particular mortal gesture. You have decided that the non-professional social aspects of your new existence are a low priority. After all, she hardly troubled herself with them. “Okay. Pen me.”